I just went to lake powell! i had a blast! we went on my cousins house boat. I found out that i have been going since i was 5...... and i didn't know..... how weird is that.... andyway. I had a blast! i got sunburned on my thighs! i was well done! lol ok well it was so much fun! and i really enjoyed it! i met the cutest little pregnant lady ever! she was awesome!. her little girl was really cute too!! i am hoping that ill be able to see eclipse today.. but we will see! well i love you guys! hopefully pictures will be coming soon!
A sobering reality. A spys life is a lonely life. If i were to go into the CIA i would never be able to tell you where i have been or why. I would never be able to tell you anything about my job. Sometimes you sacrifice things for good reasons. A spys life is full of mistrust. I trust you guys. Granted im not a spy. Not that i would tell you if i was. Mabye im looking to far into the future. Who knows, Mabye ill be the little school teacher that everyone loves. Mabye ill have 14 cats and no husband. My point is this, we dont know who we will be in 5 or 10 years. We can plan, and hope, but we dont know what we will go through in the future. That is probably a good thing. If i was told when i was 6 that i would actually have friends, i would have been hopeful but probably doubt it would happen. Sometimes you have to go through the trials to be able to look back and say that you have grown stronger. I know that this post is serious, but sometimes you need someone to slap you in the face with reality. In my case it happened to be a book/myself. Dont get me wrong i am not aiming for your face. Mabye you already know. Anyway sometimes we need to wake up. Its reality. And its not happy.
just a reminder for all of you who have forgotten..... (plus im bored bored bored!) my book blog has books, and my short story that im expanding on. I am soon going to be putting my previous story that i am still working on, but have not finished :) go ahead and take a look! thanks for reading!!
p.s. its called cozy book corner, look in my favorite blogs
I just went to youth conference at snow college :) so great! i had sosoo much fun! the ropes course was so fun!!! (even if i had to sing in order not to be scared) I had a GREAT GREAT time! our dorms were fantastic! the boys played a prank....hahah they silly stringed the laurels dorm, and poured water on them.... it was eventful!! then at 4 in the morning, i half sleep walked down the hall to another room, cuz i thought it was mine and that Whitney (sutton)(laurel) was gonna get mad at me for wearing her socks. even though i wasn't wearing her socks.....hahaha so very eventful! the dance was pretty much a downer....but then our leaders went to walmart and got us cards, and icecream! so we had fun! and then we went to the Manti pagaent and it was great! some of it was way dramatic, but it was mostly spiritual! oh and all of this isn't neccessarily in order....just so ya know. the water games we did in cloudy weather so it was really cold! but it was fun!! i had a counseler named STEPH, and she was really great!
some of my new/old favorite movies!!
My dear friend clair had a birthday! Now sh'es 15 :D
Reasons Clair is GREAT!
1. she smiles ALL THE TIME!
2. She reads the greatest books
3. She might just be the nicest person on earth
4. She is like a fish....she couldn't live without water... well none of us could but ya'll know what i mean
5. She always brightens my day :) always
I have known clair since i was 6. But we didn't really become good friends until 4th Grade when i didn't have any friends and she let me join her group. Ever since then we have been great friends. :) We played signs, quelf, and other odd games mrs. Arminen gave us to try. Clair really made my life amazing. If she wouldn't have been my friend, well who knows if i would even have any. For all we know i could have been a druggie in a corner..... well mabye not. id like to think myself a little more responsible.....but think what you may. :) Even now that she has moved away, we have always kept in touch. I look forward to the day when i can see her in person again. :)
Happy Birthday CLAIR! i hope you have had a wonderful one!
Why can't i procrastinate? Why can't i skip school? Is it because im destined for something greater? Should i be doing these things because im not? Am i destined for something greater? Are we? Is everyone destined for something but little choices slowly bring up down?
At this moment in time i am writing my short story for english. I dont know what its called yet but its gonna be good i can feel it :) anyway on my book Blog i am going to be posting a chapter a week. Only a chapter cuz i cant fit the whole thing on there. Mind you this is only a short story so i didnt go into a lot of detail and its not the best writing cuz im not an author yet :) another thing... If you guys have a twitter you can follow me. Im Bayliebenson :) Haha so anyway i call it my little bursts of happiness :D Haha well thats pretty much everything. Love you!!! Thanks for reading!!!
so I've been pretty busy. like REALLY busy. Tonight i got inducted into the Summit chapter of the National Junior Honors Society. way fun. uh huh. anyway so my friends were there and it was cool :) heres a picture.
Fablehaven 5 is a fantastic book it was great!!! Really the whole series is fantastic!!! I wont spoil it for anyone but you guys just have to read it i mean really truly its amazing:)
fowolling the example of my fellow bloggers.... lol ok so i don't know if you guys knew this but i have a book blog. its called the cozy corner of books with jazz :) orsomething like that. if you go to my favorite blogs on the right side youll see the link :) books i espcially enjoyed are there... i am trying to post more so :) 
okwell thats asmuch as i have patience for at the moment so goodbye. check out my blogWE ARE THE CHAMPIoNS!!!! and i played a litte bit and i made a steal pictures coming soon :D:D :D <# ya! though still mad at coach a bit
a couple things.
1. I HATE being a bench warmer and then being wrongly accused of being not there wow really?
2. i am just sweating through my eyes. NOT crying
3. anyone else kindof afraid of the foreign exchange students?! i am :)
let me explain the whole bench warmer thing. so I had a game today and i was soooo pumped! i was making shots before it started and i was getting excited, and then coach told me at halftime he probablywouldn't put me in. and he didn't. you wanna know why? cuz he said i missed 2 weeks of practice. I missed 1 and it was because i was sick and my mom wrote the coach a note saying that i couldn't go. the note never got deliverd apparently. But thats not the only problem. this is not the first time i have been left out of a game. and guess what there are 2 other people who have been gone for a week or more and he NEVER made them miss a game. THis is the only season where i have actually considered quitting basketball. seriously considered it. but i decided that i wasn't a quiter. oh and my mom decided that its her problem but its not but whatever. my team stood up for me today :) well at least myfriends on the team :) anyway so tell me do you think its fair that i got benched? i think its kinda hypocritical. wow anyway thats my story. oh wait the whole sweating throughmy eyes thing. well i admit i cried after thegame today. even though we won.
buscket list: or things i have never done that i need to do....
1. i have never been to Jamba juice
2. I have never been paintballing
3. I have never shot nor even held an airsoft gun
4. I have only been in the mall hphoto booth things with the filmstrip that come out....once
5 i have never been on a date (butthat wont happen for another 6 months.. :))
thats all i can think of at the moment :)D :)D
good news: I won a environmental award, from the Jane Goodall Institute. its an Environmental Recognition Award, for Exellence in Environmental Research. Pretty darn Snazzy :) out of all of them i alone got this award :) please please i know you're silently applauding but here comes the bad news
Bad news: i didn't make state
which you know i think is kindof bogus but whatever cuz I got a certificate, participation ribbon, a statue trophy of some sort, and pens. not just any pens RECYCABLE pens :) good ball point pens that WORK! and the people who went on to state got a medal, a participation ribbon, and a paper. no pens for them. therefore i am snazzy and they are just smart. hahahah but im snazzy and smart :D:D:D so pictures of my display coming soon. i haven't gotten around to taking pictures except for on my dads phone, so ya :)
Right now im on my way to the doctors office cuz my mom thinks i have Strep. With good cause i suppose. Yesterday i felt like all the battles of the civil war were going on inside my body. It literally hurt to move. Literally. I thought it would go away, so i went to school, ya and it got worse. I didnt want to go home cuz it is school and i had to talk to my science teacher about science fair. So i went home after that and i had a good cry and then found out i had a fever. So now my mother is convinced that i have Strep. This is why im not at school :)
ok BEST movie ever!!! its much better than the name suggests!! especially if you like to laugh, and thank your stars that your not that dramatic :) lol so ya. They ALL speak with BRITISH accents!! even the boys *sigh* wow i love boys who speak in accents :) so anyway like the best movie ever!!! lol so so so so so funny! great CHICK flick, and its a little more mature so don't bring people who wont understnad. its not mature in a bad way, but you gotta know what their talking about for it to be funny. <3 ya!!!
k so my mom brought some stuff up from a box she brought up from downstairs. among this was a notebook with about 10 pages of quotes. and some of them were by her. so therefor i am posting them :) love ya mom!(ps dont kill me :))
"depression slowly settles in
like a cold white snowfall
layer upon layer until the
once warm heart is hidden
in the icy flakes.
Suddenly without warnig a ray of sunshine manages to
penetrate; but the frozen
heart, temporarily thawed,
bleeds drops of sorrow
and longs to be blanketed by
the cold once again"
Nikkie (october 1989)
perfection
the ultimate goal;
reaching, stretching,
but always falling short.
nikkie
(ok this next one is by her best friend karen but I loved it therefore i am posting it)
Occasionally, we all wilt, sag and dry-
and in the end we all must die.
Death is inveitable, life is uncertain.
Laugh and cry and live and die.
Sorrow must end just as happiness
must end.
Karen (july 1989)
the call
exitement, expectation
frustration
why me?
Curiosity, confusion,
conflict
Goodbye!
anger, hope, laughter
Lingering on...
Nikkie
Him
that captivating smile
the tender look
yes or no
do what is right
temptaion, novelty, adventure
excitement
what does it all mean?
emotional seesaw
up and down
Is he worth it?
Nikkie
The ring of a phone
Is it him?
Why doesn’t he call?
Is he trying to avoid me?
Is there someone else?
the ring of a phone
Its him, he’s been out,
he misses me and
wants to see me.
he loves me, he loves me not,
a continuous circle of doubt
Nikkie
I walk alone among the crowds with
the sea of unfamiliar faces flowing past me.
I watch a seagull soar over the ocean and
with it goes my petty discontentment’s.
I look into the faces of strangers and feel
exhilarated by the realization that through them I
have finally found freedom.
Nikkie
the tender look
yes or no
do what is right
temptaion, novely, adventure
exitement
what does it all mean?
emotional seesaw
up and down
Is he worth it?
Nikkie
I MADE DISTRICT FOR THE SCIENCE FAIR!!!!!! WOOT WOOT!!!! so now I get to go on :) yay
Have you ever felt completly devoid of emotion? Or past feeling? Thats how i feel now. Whenever this happens its usually because of 2 things 1. Tiredness and 2. Arguments sometimes (which means alot) this happens
I am so so so sick of science fair! I truly truly truly am! This year I did a science fair project on solar panels, and how if you use a solar panel to run your christmas lights your energy bill will go down. I also found out that if you don't want to invest in a solar panel then simply switching your christmas lights to LED christmas lights can save you about $8.93 per season of christmas lights. pretty technical I know but ya it should be great. Ok i do have to admit the only thing I hate about science fair is the stinkin report! I like the experiments but the report is torture!!! ugh! why can't this just be awesome instead of UGH! so anyway yes.
P.S. I might be posting from my phone from now on. cuz I have no more time.... becuase of my stinkin schedule!
my aunt inspired this :) here are a couple of my craziest dreams
#1
I was part of this witch group getting my soul and someone was trying to kill me so I wouldn't get my soul back, then I somehow appeared among the lamanites (who looked strangly like polynesians) and they tried to throw me in a volcano (this is one of my more civil dreams)
#2
Lexie killed everyone in my family then came after me with a butcher knife
#3
I was a detective, trying to find a killer in a 3 floor house, she was killing every one in her family. her dad on the first floor, her best friend on the second, then all the sudden I was the mom and I thought I was persauding her to put the knife down, then she hugged me and stabbed me in the back (I actually felt the pressure...), then she pushed my dead body down the basement stairs. (now I'm the detective again) the basement was unfinished, and she threw the knife at me, i doged it but she ran back up the stairs. (now I'm the coroner who comes into the entry hall at the same time as a beautiful woman does) I recognize the woman as my ex fiance, who went to rehab the same time as me, we both had a alchohol problem, then a girl whos covered in blood comes and hugs her, and I find out that its her sister. then she says she has to arrest her, and I find out my ex is a cop now. and then her sister runs up to the attic. (now Im the sister/ex fiance)my ex fiance is there but i have to arrest my sister, I run up to the attic and apprehend my sister. then I talk to my ex find out hes still single and we plan a date... (thats when I woke up scared out of my mind)
#4
in the woods I found 2 bodies floating in a pool (lit a pool) full of blood. I'm the detective trying to find out who did it. me and my partner conclude that its not just the 2 womens blood but others, then we find that its the whole osmond family. I hide be hind a tree with my camera and then a light comes towards my partner (then i wake up)
ever since I started watching CSI and stuff well I have had some pretty scary dreams... haha I almost always die. but i get over it :) eventually :)
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these are my dads favorites, and i can't figure out how to download more so whatever these ones are cute. which ones your fav?
I have just barely discovered the wonderfulness of newsies :) it is a great movie!!! i love it!! oh dear ok I am really into broadway right now! I love it alot!! can you tell?! well broadway and movies that is... ok in newsies, there is christain bale, yes he sings, and its the same director of high school musical, this is like in teh 80's. I personally like davie, and christain isn't too bad himself. Anyway its a musical, I don't know if told you that already. THe guy in While you were sleeping, the brother is in it. it amazes me how many of these people are still alive, wow and sorta young, wow wow wow anyway some of them are like my parents age..... yikes kinda scary to think about. that was like 30 years ago! I love this movie! so you should see it.
ok broadway, there is this broadway station on my radio that I listen to alot. I'm startin to really enjoy the songs from guys and dolls. its pretty awesom. the song I mean I dont even know the story or plot of the acutal play but the music is cool.
these are my brothers words as we look at clair and cassidys blog. He has declared his love for her, and has decided that he is going to marry her...
ashton:mommy I saw the girl I'm gonna marry today
mom:who?
ashton:one of Baylie's friends...a big one!
mom: which one?
ashton: you know the big one!!!
mom: caitlin? clair? annika? cassidy-
ashton:YA cassidy :)
oh and the picture....you guessed it, its of cassidy
PS eveyone is big to him so dont take offense :)
Cinderella by roger and hammersteins! I love the ballroom the singing! I just love it!
ok I forgot about christmas.... wow! ok this is what I got
-camera
-BIG thing of scrapbook stuff
-a shirt
-(all the girls)(which means sharing) polkadot flat iron
haha sorry bout forgetting!! lol love ya'll!!
ok its time for me to post again. I got my permit! last week on monday! and yesterday I was in this Brand new year thing, the new mutual theme for 2010 is..........(drumroll)
Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.- 2010 mutual theme :D
the song is very great too!!
the picture up there is me and my friend chelsey! at the surprise party I threw for my friend caitlin :)
p.s.picnik rocks!
in case you didn't know that it Jingle bells by the dogs, I was listening to it on the radio, and I thought it was kinda weird truly. ok I decided that, I am going to post pictures every single time I post. thats one of my new year goals :) it will prob be randomly connected in some odd way. I really want a cute hat that is cute. you know what I mean? I need a hat that is cute that I can wear but doesn't make me look like a boy.... so I need a hat. there are really cute ones at forever 21 but I have like a phobia of hats. I'm afraid that they will make my hair greasy? is that weird?
so anyway I love glee but its over, and as was pointed out to me it encourages homosexualism. which is just getting us used to the idea. you know what obama just did? he passed a law that says saying anything bad about a gay or lesbian is considered a hate crime and its worse than if you commit something against your family. and guess what just flew out the window? our FREEDOM OF SPEECH! if there was ever a gay or lesbian president we wouldn't be able to say anything against them. HOW COMPLETLY AND UTTERLY STUPID OF CONGRESS. I just don't know what the heck was going through their minds. how long until we are all desenitized? I wonder if Obama can get impeached because of this? you think? hmmmm mabye I should write a letter. addressed to the presdent. do you think he would read it? haha I doubt it. he probably doesnt have time since he is accepting a peace prize in norway which again HE DOESN"T DESERVE!!! wow
ok on a happier subject last night I threw a surprise party for my friend. which leads me to this. Annika came to the party, annika is one of my best friends. shes so funny and i learn something new everyday about her. the pic at the top is just me and her at a football game I think last summer,,, shes so funny!
thanks for reading!<3 baylie bee
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ok I haven't posted in a while and its been sooo busy I just have NO time wow! ok so I got into the play at school, and then basket ball every single school day I dont get home til 5:45, on a good day. then I have piano and mutual and all that fun stuff. UGH UGH UGH! I just have to keep myself busy I guess. ok so I'm really bad about my contacts. I keep sleeping with them in which is super bad for my eyes. so I'm giving my eyes a break. I am wearing glasses right now. I am blind. I mean really truly blind I can't see anything! I forgot how nearsighted I am!. ok biology is so fascinating for me! I just think its so cool, to learn about cells, and the mitochandria, and DNA and RNA and wow it just blows my mind! I really really want to be a criminal phschologist. the only problem is that its as many years as medical school. so basically I have to get my PH D. you ask why I wan't to be a criminal phscho (Im shortening the name btw)? because criminals are fascinating for me. why did they break the law. what pushed them over the edge. they are so many possibilities I mean wow. Every person needs someone to be their friend and thats what I'm going to do. ok my 5 TOP jobs are....
1. Crimial Phscho
2. Linguist Specialist(CIA)
3. FBI
4. Teacher (5th grade or jr.high)
5. forensic phscho (watch bones you will understand)
haha kinda funny, apparently I really want to work for the government. haha ok anyway. Thanksgiving was great it was amazing in fact. I was kinda sad at the beginning because I was talking to my great grandma and she was so fragile, and ready to die. her skin was like tissue paper. It was sorta depressing. I dont want her to die naturally but if its what heavenly father wants then its what will happen. she is ready to go and be with my great granpa again. she's looking forward to it. I am getting really old too. I mean I'm 15 I can drive (as soon as I go get my drivers permit) I get to date in less than 10 months can you believe that? I know and the first sememster is almost done. Oh dear my life is flashing before my eyes and I am doing nothing to stop it. what am I gonna tell my children? that I just let life slip by? oh dear ok lets be more happy shall we? did you know I hardly ever even have time to read anymore? let alone get on the internet. which is probably a good thing. Ive told myself I'm going to start running again. I need to lose some weight. now don't start bugging me I know I'm not fat and I'm not going to go anorexic on you. you know what anorexia and belimia would be so horrible to go through please don't ever ever EVER do that. promise me this, you can't die before i do. let me die first... ok really I need to get off this topic of dieing.
ok so I found my CTR ring :) and i made this cute as a button new friend. her name is emma and she is probably one of the biggest blessings in my life right now. you know sometimes i feel as if school is something to escape to. some people eat, I readboooks. but sometimes school is a place to relax and stress at the same time. its a place to exercise my mind and my personality. thats another thing I don't have a personality I am like an empty shell sure there is some that is me... but I just don't feel like its truly me. I don't even know who the true me is anymore. I dont think i ever knew... you know I think that this is the longest post for a long time. I hope you read all of it otherwise you will never know what is going on in my life. ok I think boys are dumb I mean no offense to their gender but I almost wish I could go back to my 6 year old self when I believed that boys have cooties. you know it is SO pointless to date before you're 16 or even have a steady boyfriend when your 16 you know why? because boys are unpredictable but predictable at the same time. sometimes you know what their thinking and sometimes you don't. why take the time to unravel a mystery when you could be hanging out with you best friends haveing girl time? girl time right now i think is more important than boy time. now I'm not suggesting to like go and totally have a boy strike and not even talk to them no. I mean I have guy friends but they all know that I don't like anyone like that and they are courteous. and in turn I tell them what not to do when they like a girl. haha wwell thats how it goes. really though don't do it your just opening your heart for a dagger. or at least pain. snow is a truly beautiful thing. its sparkly and it comes with a fire and hot chocolate. who doesn't love that? apparently some people. I think that I need to open up to other people more. I love to give advice and help people feel better. but I dont like talking to others about my problems. infact I dont tell anyone. I mean occasionally I tell you a snippet or so of whats going on but I guess I am just someone who doesn't like my feelings to be known. thats how you get hurt. like laying yourself on the table for someone to scrutenize and judge you. NO THANKS. but truthfully this is probably the most open and honest post that Ive written for a while. I just want to keep writing. I probably shouldn't though. oh well. the tips of my fingers are freezing. you know what? friends are the light in the abyss of darkness that encumbers us. friends and the gospel. I truly believe that friends and the gospel can pull you out of almost anything. I love you guys so much. for being my friend and reading this and making a blog so that I can read it. wow you guys are incredible and beautiful, and amazing and words that I don't even know. you guys are truly something. more than anything else. and I'm not just saying that. I mean it with my whole heart and my whole soul. you know this blog post did not go as I meant it to go lol. guess what? my aunt comes home from her mission on the 20th. I'm sooooo exited! and my other aunt got married to a wonderful man. life is pain, anyone who says different is selling somthing. but guess what? its also wonderful. and happy. it gives us strength and helps us along. and thats how the savior is. he helps you up when you are down, and gives you comfort when you need it. my life is truly something with the gospel in it. I don't know where I would be without it. I thank everyone that has been apart of my life. I hope that they know that I love them and that I would do anything for them. mabye not kill myself, but mostly anything. hey and if you ever need some lifting up give me a call, or email, or facebook message, or txt or anything anytime!I love you guys more than I can say and I'm more than grateful for you. thanks for reading this extremly long post. and if you just skipped to the end you missed all the good parts :) haha well I do need to go to bed now so I am going to say good night! goodnight! :)
it was my birthday on OCTOBER 25,and i had a very nice birthday! thankyou!!! thankyou to everyone who sent me a txt email, vocalness, etc i loved it!! thanks!!
ok so my aunt kim got married yesterday to a great guy and she is gorgeus! I love her to death! it was a fun wedding! I love it!
ok now for my random rambles.....(drumroll)
ok so I've been reading these books that are really great and their really intense and they are pretty awesome, and I found my come unto the mountain bracelet and my halloween costume is planned but its a secret so those of you I have told DONT TELL cuz its gonna be way INTENSE, so ya, and cassidy got a phone, and my birthday is in 7days, and im really exited so ya, today was really intense and really hurtful cuz well my kidneys hurt and my lower spine and my appendix so i was just aching but then i took some ibphrophen so i was all good, my new favorite show is GLEE its soo awesome, and today in seminary we bore our testimonys and I cried and annika cried and stephen cried (cuz he's a true man :)) haha I have so much more respect for stephen now, and ya it was amazing lots of people were crying so ya it was way fun so ya and ok so i was gonna say something but now I have forgotton so I will say someitnig in german, Ich Mochte kuchen I think that means i like cake but I'm not sure, my hand is getting a cramp from writing this and you are probably getting a headache from reading this, I decided that i love owl city cuz their amazing, and my friend emma is sooooo awesomely awesome so ya its so fun and ya oh I remember what i was gonna tell you..... ok so jake liked me but then he doesn't anymore, so now i found out that JOSH likes me and so now its way intense cuz he's KINDOF a jerk and i dont' really want him to like me but apparently he does, guess what he did? HE THREATENED ME WITH A SPIDER i mean come on pluhze, so it was ya crazy so ya now my head hurts making this so i should probably stop now so i am going to! oh and one more thing..... I am drownding in stress.... but ya just drowning WHY DOES HIGHSCHOOL HAVE TO BE SOOO HARD!!
bye ya'll loveya!
