This Little Life of Mine: November 2012

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Sort of

I'm posting again! I know surprising since its so soon! I figured I would post!
I think I'm finally letting go. which is good! I'm still waiting to hear from BYU-I. We shall see what happens!! I really really want to go! It just feels right.
Right now life is so crazy. My face is breaking out, I'm losing my hair, I can't sleep, and I cant eat or sleep. The cause of this? Stress. I go to school. I go to work. I go back to school. I sleep. I go to school. I go to work. I go back to school. I sleep. Repeat. My life is so busy that I can't think. I no longer have motivation because I have no idea why I'm making myself so miserable. I'm trying to hang in there. I just have to take some deep breaths and remember that the Lord knows who I am and he's looking out for me. I'm really trying hard to rely on the Lord in EVERYTHING I do. It's proving to be hard! I want to be independent, and then I figure out that I can't do it on my own. I'm learning that its okay to be sad and disappointed sometimes. Ultimately it will work out for the better and it will turn out okay. I just need to trust in the Lord and stop trying to control my life. I need to just let go! Easier said than done eh?
I'm sorry my blog posts are so depressing! I am happy! I'm just learning!
Love you all! Thanks for reading! :)

Sort of - Ingrid Michaelson

Thanksgiving

Madrigals Fieldtrip!

Sometimes the most simple things in life make you the most happy.

Temple Square with Kenzi!

Sometimes you just need a new perspective.

I make my own story.

Friday, November 16, 2012

The most human color, blue.

Hello my friends :) this girl has been busy. I'm sorry I haven't posted for a while. Let me give you a couple of updates.

1. It's been 2 months since I broke up with Morgan. Why does this matter? Cuz it still hurts, and I still want him but he will go out of his way to avoid and ignore me. He hasn't said a word to me since we broke up. He avoids me in the halls. Anyways, it hurts. I
don't know how to make it better.
2. I really hate school. It's full of a bunch of kids who think that it's everything to be popular, when on reality no one cares once you leave high school. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one who sees the world after high school. I know that's not true, but sometimes that's what it feels like.
3. I'm all finished applying to colleges! I applied to USU, BYU, and BYU- Idaho. If I'm accepted, I want to go to BYU-Idaho. I went and visited and I knew that it was the place for me to go. I'm going to major in Sociology with a minor in communications and a cluster in global terrorism :) I'm so excited. You have no idea. I'm gonna room with my good friend Cassidy, and possibly Quin. We are going to have a blast.
4. I ran Ragnar this past weekend. It was super hard. There was 35-40 mph winds almost the whole time. But I did it as got a cool medal for doing 2 Ragnars in 1 year. Fun stuff.
5. Oh yeah. I'm 18. My birthday was the 25th of October. Ya I'm an adult. It's weird to say how old I am. I know that's its right, but it hasn't sunk in yet.

Well that's my life. Any questions, comments, concerns, or advice? Please post it. I love hearing from you :)
Song cred: Blue Lips: Regina Spektor