Have you ever felt completly devoid of emotion? Or past feeling? Thats how i feel now. Whenever this happens its usually because of 2 things 1. Tiredness and 2. Arguments sometimes (which means alot) this happens

Lovelies

ok if you haven't noticed, I'm a bit into paris lately :) so OUI OUI madame :) I love you guys!!! oh and summit won their game 16-6 :) we are pretty awesome!

This is a test run test test test :) :D

Science fair

I am so so so sick of science fair! I truly truly truly am! This year I did a science fair project on solar panels, and how if you use a solar panel to run your christmas lights your energy bill will go down. I also found out that if you don't want to invest in a solar panel then simply switching your christmas lights to LED christmas lights can save you about $8.93 per season of christmas lights. pretty technical I know but ya it should be great. Ok i do have to admit the only thing I hate about science fair is the stinkin report! I like the experiments but the report is torture!!! ugh! why can't this just be awesome instead of UGH! so anyway yes.

P.S. I might be posting from my phone from now on. cuz I have no more time.... becuase of my stinkin schedule!

crazy dreams

my aunt inspired this :) here are a couple of my craziest dreams

#1
I was part of this witch group getting my soul and someone was trying to kill me so I wouldn't get my soul back, then I somehow appeared among the lamanites (who looked strangly like polynesians) and they tried to throw me in a volcano (this is one of my more civil dreams)

#2
Lexie killed everyone in my family then came after me with a butcher knife

#3
I was a detective, trying to find a killer in a 3 floor house, she was killing every one in her family. her dad on the first floor, her best friend on the second, then all the sudden I was the mom and I thought I was persauding her to put the knife down, then she hugged me and stabbed me in the back (I actually felt the pressure...), then she pushed my dead body down the basement stairs. (now I'm the detective again) the basement was unfinished, and she threw the knife at me, i doged it but she ran back up the stairs. (now I'm the coroner who comes into the entry hall at the same time as a beautiful woman does) I recognize the woman as my ex fiance, who went to rehab the same time as me, we both had a alchohol problem, then a girl whos covered in blood comes and hugs her, and I find out that its her sister. then she says she has to arrest her, and I find out my ex is a cop now. and then her sister runs up to the attic. (now Im the sister/ex fiance)my ex fiance is there but i have to arrest my sister, I run up to the attic and apprehend my sister. then I talk to my ex find out hes still single and we plan a date... (thats when I woke up scared out of my mind)

#4
in the woods I found 2 bodies floating in a pool (lit a pool) full of blood. I'm the detective trying to find out who did it. me and my partner conclude that its not just the 2 womens blood but others, then we find that its the whole osmond family. I hide be hind a tree with my camera and then a light comes towards my partner (then i wake up)

ever since I started watching CSI and stuff well I have had some pretty scary dreams... haha I almost always die. but i get over it :) eventually :)

family pictures

these are my dads favorites, and i can't figure out how to download more so whatever these ones are cute. which ones your fav?

Newsies

I have just barely discovered the wonderfulness of newsies :) it is a great movie!!! i love it!! oh dear ok I am really into broadway right now! I love it alot!! can you tell?! well broadway and movies that is... ok in newsies, there is christain bale, yes he sings, and its the same director of high school musical, this is like in teh 80's. I personally like davie, and christain isn't too bad himself. Anyway its a musical, I don't know if told you that already. THe guy in While you were sleeping, the brother is in it. it amazes me how many of these people are still alive, wow and sorta young, wow wow wow anyway some of them are like my parents age..... yikes kinda scary to think about. that was like 30 years ago! I love this movie! so you should see it.
ok broadway, there is this broadway station on my radio that I listen to alot. I'm startin to really enjoy the songs from guys and dolls. its pretty awesom. the song I mean I dont even know the story or plot of the acutal play but the music is cool.

I wanna see cassidy! skip to cassidy!!!

these are my brothers words as we look at clair and cassidys blog. He has declared his love for her, and has decided that he is going to marry her...

ashton:mommy I saw the girl I'm gonna marry today
mom:who?
ashton:one of Baylie's friends...a big one!
mom: which one?
ashton: you know the big one!!!
mom: caitlin? clair? annika? cassidy-
ashton:YA cassidy :)

oh and the picture....you guessed it, its of cassidy

PS eveyone is big to him so dont take offense :)

One of my FAVORITEEST MOVIE OF ALL TIME!!

Cinderella by roger and hammersteins! I love the ballroom the singing! I just love it!

christmas

ok I forgot about christmas.... wow! ok this is what I got
-camera
-BIG thing of scrapbook stuff
-a shirt
-(all the girls)(which means sharing) polkadot flat iron
haha sorry bout forgetting!! lol love ya'll!!

ok its time for me to post again. I got my permit! last week on monday! and yesterday I was in this Brand new year thing, the new mutual theme for 2010 is..........(drumroll)

Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.- 2010 mutual theme :D

the song is very great too!!
the picture up there is me and my friend chelsey! at the surprise party I threw for my friend caitlin :)
p.s.picnik rocks!

ruff ruff ruff, ruff ruff ruff, woof woof woof woof ruff!

in case you didn't know that it Jingle bells by the dogs, I was listening to it on the radio, and I thought it was kinda weird truly. ok I decided that, I am going to post pictures every single time I post. thats one of my new year goals :) it will prob be randomly connected in some odd way. I really want a cute hat that is cute. you know what I mean? I need a hat that is cute that I can wear but doesn't make me look like a boy.... so I need a hat. there are really cute ones at forever 21 but I have like a phobia of hats. I'm afraid that they will make my hair greasy? is that weird?
so anyway I love glee but its over, and as was pointed out to me it encourages homosexualism. which is just getting us used to the idea. you know what obama just did? he passed a law that says saying anything bad about a gay or lesbian is considered a hate crime and its worse than if you commit something against your family. and guess what just flew out the window? our FREEDOM OF SPEECH! if there was ever a gay or lesbian president we wouldn't be able to say anything against them. HOW COMPLETLY AND UTTERLY STUPID OF CONGRESS. I just don't know what the heck was going through their minds. how long until we are all desenitized? I wonder if Obama can get impeached because of this? you think? hmmmm mabye I should write a letter. addressed to the presdent. do you think he would read it? haha I doubt it. he probably doesnt have time since he is accepting a peace prize in norway which again HE DOESN"T DESERVE!!! wow
ok on a happier subject last night I threw a surprise party for my friend. which leads me to this. Annika came to the party, annika is one of my best friends. shes so funny and i learn something new everyday about her. the pic at the top is just me and her at a football game I think last summer,,, shes so funny!
thanks for reading!<3 baylie bee

thanks for reading :) (dont skip to the bottom)

ok I haven't posted in a while and its been sooo busy I just have NO time wow! ok so I got into the play at school, and then basket ball every single school day I dont get home til 5:45, on a good day. then I have piano and mutual and all that fun stuff. UGH UGH UGH! I just have to keep myself busy I guess. ok so I'm really bad about my contacts. I keep sleeping with them in which is super bad for my eyes. so I'm giving my eyes a break. I am wearing glasses right now. I am blind. I mean really truly blind I can't see anything! I forgot how nearsighted I am!. ok biology is so fascinating for me! I just think its so cool, to learn about cells, and the mitochandria, and DNA and RNA and wow it just blows my mind! I really really want to be a criminal phschologist. the only problem is that its as many years as medical school. so basically I have to get my PH D. you ask why I wan't to be a criminal phscho (Im shortening the name btw)? because criminals are fascinating for me. why did they break the law. what pushed them over the edge. they are so many possibilities I mean wow. Every person needs someone to be their friend and thats what I'm going to do. ok my 5 TOP jobs are....
1. Crimial Phscho
2. Linguist Specialist(CIA)
3. FBI
4. Teacher (5th grade or jr.high)
5. forensic phscho (watch bones you will understand)
haha kinda funny, apparently I really want to work for the government. haha ok anyway. Thanksgiving was great it was amazing in fact. I was kinda sad at the beginning because I was talking to my great grandma and she was so fragile, and ready to die. her skin was like tissue paper. It was sorta depressing. I dont want her to die naturally but if its what heavenly father wants then its what will happen. she is ready to go and be with my great granpa again. she's looking forward to it. I am getting really old too. I mean I'm 15 I can drive (as soon as I go get my drivers permit) I get to date in less than 10 months can you believe that? I know and the first sememster is almost done. Oh dear my life is flashing before my eyes and I am doing nothing to stop it. what am I gonna tell my children? that I just let life slip by? oh dear ok lets be more happy shall we? did you know I hardly ever even have time to read anymore? let alone get on the internet. which is probably a good thing. Ive told myself I'm going to start running again. I need to lose some weight. now don't start bugging me I know I'm not fat and I'm not going to go anorexic on you. you know what anorexia and belimia would be so horrible to go through please don't ever ever EVER do that. promise me this, you can't die before i do. let me die first... ok really I need to get off this topic of dieing.
ok so I found my CTR ring :) and i made this cute as a button new friend. her name is emma and she is probably one of the biggest blessings in my life right now. you know sometimes i feel as if school is something to escape to. some people eat, I readboooks. but sometimes school is a place to relax and stress at the same time. its a place to exercise my mind and my personality. thats another thing I don't have a personality I am like an empty shell sure there is some that is me... but I just don't feel like its truly me. I don't even know who the true me is anymore. I dont think i ever knew... you know I think that this is the longest post for a long time. I hope you read all of it otherwise you will never know what is going on in my life. ok I think boys are dumb I mean no offense to their gender but I almost wish I could go back to my 6 year old self when I believed that boys have cooties. you know it is SO pointless to date before you're 16 or even have a steady boyfriend when your 16 you know why? because boys are unpredictable but predictable at the same time. sometimes you know what their thinking and sometimes you don't. why take the time to unravel a mystery when you could be hanging out with you best friends haveing girl time? girl time right now i think is more important than boy time. now I'm not suggesting to like go and totally have a boy strike and not even talk to them no. I mean I have guy friends but they all know that I don't like anyone like that and they are courteous. and in turn I tell them what not to do when they like a girl. haha wwell thats how it goes. really though don't do it your just opening your heart for a dagger. or at least pain. snow is a truly beautiful thing. its sparkly and it comes with a fire and hot chocolate. who doesn't love that? apparently some people. I think that I need to open up to other people more. I love to give advice and help people feel better. but I dont like talking to others about my problems. infact I dont tell anyone. I mean occasionally I tell you a snippet or so of whats going on but I guess I am just someone who doesn't like my feelings to be known. thats how you get hurt. like laying yourself on the table for someone to scrutenize and judge you. NO THANKS. but truthfully this is probably the most open and honest post that Ive written for a while. I just want to keep writing. I probably shouldn't though. oh well. the tips of my fingers are freezing. you know what? friends are the light in the abyss of darkness that encumbers us. friends and the gospel. I truly believe that friends and the gospel can pull you out of almost anything. I love you guys so much. for being my friend and reading this and making a blog so that I can read it. wow you guys are incredible and beautiful, and amazing and words that I don't even know. you guys are truly something. more than anything else. and I'm not just saying that. I mean it with my whole heart and my whole soul. you know this blog post did not go as I meant it to go lol. guess what? my aunt comes home from her mission on the 20th. I'm sooooo exited! and my other aunt got married to a wonderful man. life is pain, anyone who says different is selling somthing. but guess what? its also wonderful. and happy. it gives us strength and helps us along. and thats how the savior is. he helps you up when you are down, and gives you comfort when you need it. my life is truly something with the gospel in it. I don't know where I would be without it. I thank everyone that has been apart of my life. I hope that they know that I love them and that I would do anything for them. mabye not kill myself, but mostly anything. hey and if you ever need some lifting up give me a call, or email, or facebook message, or txt or anything anytime!I love you guys more than I can say and I'm more than grateful for you. thanks for reading this extremly long post. and if you just skipped to the end you missed all the good parts :) haha well I do need to go to bed now so I am going to say good night! goodnight! :)

I cut my hair!

Birthdays are good for you. Statistics show that the people who have the most live the longest

it was my birthday on OCTOBER 25,and i had a very nice birthday! thankyou!!! thankyou to everyone who sent me a txt email, vocalness, etc i loved it!! thanks!!

Wedding and random rambles

ok so my aunt kim got married yesterday to a great guy and she is gorgeus! I love her to death! it was a fun wedding! I love it!
ok now for my random rambles.....(drumroll)
ok so I've been reading these books that are really great and their really intense and they are pretty awesome, and I found my come unto the mountain bracelet and my halloween costume is planned but its a secret so those of you I have told DONT TELL cuz its gonna be way INTENSE, so ya, and cassidy got a phone, and my birthday is in 7days, and im really exited so ya, today was really intense and really hurtful cuz well my kidneys hurt and my lower spine and my appendix so i was just aching but then i took some ibphrophen so i was all good, my new favorite show is GLEE its soo awesome, and today in seminary we bore our testimonys and I cried and annika cried and stephen cried (cuz he's a true man :)) haha I have so much more respect for stephen now, and ya it was amazing lots of people were crying so ya it was way fun so ya and ok so i was gonna say something but now I have forgotton so I will say someitnig in german, Ich Mochte kuchen I think that means i like cake but I'm not sure, my hand is getting a cramp from writing this and you are probably getting a headache from reading this, I decided that i love owl city cuz their amazing, and my friend emma is sooooo awesomely awesome so ya its so fun and ya oh I remember what i was gonna tell you..... ok so jake liked me but then he doesn't anymore, so now i found out that JOSH likes me and so now its way intense cuz he's KINDOF a jerk and i dont' really want him to like me but apparently he does, guess what he did? HE THREATENED ME WITH A SPIDER i mean come on pluhze, so it was ya crazy so ya now my head hurts making this so i should probably stop now so i am going to! oh and one more thing..... I am drownding in stress.... but ya just drowning WHY DOES HIGHSCHOOL HAVE TO BE SOOO HARD!!
bye ya'll loveya!

Alls Fair in Love War and Highschool

ok well now that I'm in highschool it is VERY vERY HARD!!! like really its like wow are you trying to swamp us? haha today is kindof an off day it was a pretty light load.
Cross country has started and I had my first meet the other day and I got 18:43 I know I know it was pretty aweseom! I have another one todayso we will see
I also tried out for the play... I made it!! my name is Billie Holder, I'm a banker!
as for love.... we will wait and see...

Young Women's :) Rose!

ok so in young womens we did this cool rose/herb class! it was way awesome!!
so first we ate rose sndwhiches, with bread and butter and a little bit of rose sugar and a rose petal in the middle, and it was way good! so that was good, and we had rose salad, and this rose drink, that actually kinda tasted like my moms perfume.... but it was good. and there were these rose truffles.... THEY WERE SOOO GOOD!!! yummy just thinking about them makes my mouth water. So we did that and then we watched margerate make this oatmeal rose facial stuff that feels really good and it really cleanses your face. then we did nail/ cuticle oil, and headache oil, and these poperei bag things and bath salt and sugared roses! It was way fun! and so now my room smells like oils and its smells good like lilacs :) so that was super fun so ya! :)

SCHOOLIO!

ok school has started and Ive been sooo busy you can't even imagine!! so I am trying to update but ya.
ok in geography we have to know all the countries of the world, and she showed us the video on you tube and its on the bottom of the page and it goes sooo super fast so ya its pretty intemse!
ok in Algebra 2..... its just hard! I'm on like the 3rd lesson and I'm doing ok but ya its WAY stressing!
German 2 ok this is the most exiciting so brace yourself.....we're going to germany!!!!!I know doesn't it just blow your mind away!!! aHHHH the only thing is that it costs like a million bucks!! ok jk its like 2,000 dollars, so if any of you reading my blog need a babysitter or anything, someone to file or dust or any job you need filled I would love to help!! thanks so much and have a good day!
oh P.S. to the right > there is a quote box from good reads and its pretty awesome theyre quotes that I like that I have looked at so ya.... have a good day all ya'll!!

schedule for 9th grade

I am so exited for school! I love it!! heres my schedule everyone!
1st semester
1.English 9 H-Snow
2. Geography for life H- scott
3. Theater 2- Mccomb
4.Release time-Marsh
5.German 2-Ellsworth
6.Biology H- Jensen
7. Algebra 2- Mabey
8. Mixed choir- Parker

2nd semester
1. English 9 H- snow
2. Geography for life H- Scott
3. Fitness 9- simpson
4. Release time- Marsh
5. German 2 -Ellsworth
6. Biology H- Jensen
7. Algebra 2- mabey
8.Mixed choir- parker