New Phone

I got a new phone, and its pretty sweet. its a knockoff an i phone. but i like it none the less.

Feild Trip

I cried. I hyperventilated.... just at the beginning. the rest of the time i had a death grip on Paige Victorine, Cassidy,  and or Paige l. with my head hidden and my eyes closed. safe to say i was scared to death! so in closing... i will NEVER EVER EVER!!! go into a haunted house ever again...

JOb INterview!!

That is correct! I have a JOB INTERVIEW! for massage envy! yay! tomorrow! so anyway wish me luck!
also tomorrow is my feild trip to castle of caos... and im TERRIFIED! hahaha hopefully pics! love ya!

that which doesn't kill us, makes us stronger...

you might die, but it wont kill you :)

hey guys.... i really have nothing to post except that i passed my parallel parking test and im gettin ready to drive soon. :) i found out that i work well under pressure or stress. see im pretty boring today :) anyway :) thanks for reading this very boring, almost to myself post lol oh and clair is in utah! YAY! pictures hopfully...if not oh well.

Traci Hunter Abramson

I met Traci Hunter Abramson. she signed my book :) i was very close to not being able to even listen to her. Summit Academy High School had her for an Assembly. They posted on the door a flyer that said "come and join us". When we got there they said we couldn't come in because it was a school assembly. Emotions were running high, i had just woken up and ya a cried a little bit. not enough to be sobbing but my eyes were watering down my cheeks. :) then i got a hold of myself, saw Mrs.Smith and went and talked to her. Finally she consented that Annika, Chloe, and i could come and sit in the back row. it was a really good assembly. She gave writing tips and she told about her work in the CIA. Well what she could tell anyway. after the assembly i got her to sign my book. Im really glad i got to listen. this woman is my role model, and she lives in virginia, so i thought i would never see her or listen to her, but lucky for us there is a writers conference going on right now. So she came to Utah for that. anyway thanks for listening to my pitiful story lol :)

Picniks and Parking

ok here are a couple of my all time fav picniks.... (photo editing) i love it! also I PASSED MY DRIVERS TEST! now all i have to do is finish the class and do parallel parking :)

Fall

The other day was the beginning of fall :) i have so many memories i can't keep them straight, mostly of broadway kidz. but i look back and there was girls camp and youth conference. Yesterday Diane dropped off some pictures, and i love them :) its so great, too bad i can't put um into digatal form :) anyway here is some pics :)

News

President: Cassidy
Vice President: Baylie
Secretary: Mallory
Historian: Brittany, Kylee

This is the Women's choir presidency :) im so excited. all of these girls are amazing, and im just way excited!!
Driving: ok overall im ok. i haven't killed anyone yet :) and i went on the free way at 5:00 this morning and i lived. I can't park though. im a terrible parker :) lol. oh and i found out that you're not supposed to drive a car with 2 feet :) don't judge :) i love life and thanks for listening to ramblings :)
Broadway kidz: bk is over :( but i now know so many new friends :) and i just love them all and i can't wait to see them again. heres one picture. Ill post more soon.

Final Cast List

"Friendship is certainly the finest balm for the pangs of disappointed love."— Jane Austen
thats a great quote! anyway. I am NOT in 42nd street. but hey i am perfectly ok with it because i now have more homework time. :) hey on the 9,10,11, 13 is broadway kidz. Both cass and i would appreciate it if you came! thanks for reading my ramblings! 

inspiration!

ready?  how is it that love songs are always the best songs, dirty ones are always the most catchy, and the ones that swear are the ones you want to sing? I made that up! im just bored and waiting for them to post the final cast list. i think they're postingit tomorrow actually.... but ya whatever. :) im really quite bored.... and nobody is txting me so extra bored....wow thats pathetic! a girl, its friday and her whole sadness is cuz people wont txt her.... wow im gonna go read a book! OH yeah look at me! woohoo!!

Callbacks for 42nd street!

yes i did i made callbacks! as a DANCER! bahahahaha i was so faking my tap! but guess what? im really gonna try tomorrow and i really hope i get in! thanks for supporting me in all that i do! i love you guys! also
come to broadway kidz magic. On september 9,10,11, and 13! be there or be Diamond! (cassidy said it not me!) thanks! come see both cass and i and you will love it!

42nd street

im trying out for the musical today! wish me luck! i love you! i am going to be 16 in like a month and a half! so scary!! ah! i love my classes and im making some really great friends. so far im lovin highschool! key club meeting tomorrow! im joining!

I love highschool!

I really truly do and i just love everyone. I want to go out for choir presidency as the vice president! I love choir! anyway i love alta and its just the best!! I LOVE YOU!

I will survive!

today was not as bad as i thought it would be and i'm happy. it still feels like a dream, but i know its reality. anyway after school, i started to finish (oxymoron) my homework and ended up taking a 2 hour power nap. :) so now i'm ready to go to bed again. so i can get up on time for early morning seminary. I love my seminary class. and I've only been in there a day. I have brother Campbell, and i just love him. anyway. if this sounds sleepy its cuz i am! love you all! hope you all had good first days as well.

Sophomore schedule

 OK before i post this. today i woke up at 7 am. to change my schedule. i didn't leave until 10. 3 hours and the counselor told me there wasn't a possible way to change my schedule lol. i'm cool though. just thought it was funny!

1 German 3 H            Carmiol
2 Chemistry H            Tucker
3 L.A. 10 H               Lantis
4 Choir                      Frederick
5 Pre-calc                 Courtney
6 Drivers ed              Brown
7 World history AP   Adams
8 consumer health      Paskins

The second semester is the same except 6th i have a business manegment class and 8th i have comp tech

i have nothing to post

i have nothing to post. im going shopping today and knowing me i wont get much.im terrible at shopping. i need a teacher. Any takers? im really busy. but so idle at the same time. does that make sense? no ok well it makes sense to me! i mostly read check the book blog to see what ive been reading (and writing)

happiness is a gift... that you give to yourself

You know you dont need boys and clothes and Jewlry to be happy. The one thing that has the ability to make up happy is ourselves. :) sometimes we feel down but sooner or later we have to come up! And be happy. Right now i am happy. Happy happy happy. Not a hysteric hyper happy, but a completly satisfied happy. if you learn from your mistakes, you will be going in the right direction. I want all of you to be as happy as i am. Be confident in yourself, not what others think you are. Cuz you are the only one who can call the shots:) be happy cuz Youll be happier that way :) :) :)

Sophmores! at ALTA!

yay! I am now a sophomore at ALTA! and i don't know how to spell apparently lol ok well anyway. I have homework already! its crazy! i would give ya'll my schedule but i am prob gonna change it. this is a short post because  truly i have nothing to post. nothing interesting is happened lately. not really anyway. oh GUESS WHAT?! at Alta, they have a Psychology club!!! and a United Nations club! and a Polynesian club.like wow! i am so so so so EXCITED!!

updates on meine life!

I have officially decided!!! i am going to be a linguist!! oh and i learned what an ameeba is today!! and i am learning hip hop! broadway kids is really kickin my butt!! lol i have had a great summer and wish it wouldn't end!!! oh well! i love everyone!! oh and boys...... have cooties hehehe

Broadway Kidz!

This is the play I am in! I am an Earth minion, Water minion, and an Astronaut! and i am so excited for you to mabye possible come and see me and cass be the best ever!!! she is an earth minion, a water minion and a hip hop dancer. I hope she doesn't mind me saying so. :) love ya! come and see us! 

DRIVING!

Yes i drove succesfully on the road today! with REAL cars! until i stalled or something, I dont know what i did cuz my mom was saying one thing, my feet were doing something else and i was trying to control it all.... anyway this ended up happening!...

by that time we were 3 blocks away.... and i had to push it there. but its all good. this is what my mom had to say on the matter...."learners permit $35, Drivers Ed $125, Having your daughter push the car home after she breaks it-Priceless!!!"

The Impostor/ The unexpected (a taste)

Prologue
   Randall Slater stepped into the high rise office, and closed the door.     
"Is everything set?" Jimmy Blake said, turning his leather chair around.
"Everything will be perfect." Randall said, standing in front of the desk.
" The girl is prepared? She knows what to do?" Jimmy asked, eyes boring into Randall's skull. "Because if this plan fails, your time is up" he said smoothly, leaning back. Giving the position of indifference. Randall did not flinch. His boss was dangerous, but if you did what he asked, you were safe. 
"Everything is set and ready. No one will suspect." Randall consoled, quietly confidant.
"It better be." Jimmy said, turning his attention to the papers on his desk. Randall recognized a dismissal when he saw one. He let himself out. 
Jimmy Blake had been waiting for this plan to go into action for 17 years. He was patient. Finally he would get back at the couple that almost brought his downfall. Now they were going to fall. He chuckled to himself. They would never know what hit them




(to read more please go to my book blog) (see my favorites)

Broadway kidz and my weekend of triumph

I made it into Broadway kidz!!! Cass and i both did! its so exciting! I'm so excited!
My weekend of triumph was based on one wake board ride. but ill get to that later. First, last Sunday (the 18th) my cousins from the Ukraine, Anastasia and Masha (aka Maria), were baptized. Then on Tuesday they were sealed to their parents in the temple. THEN, on Thursday my family and their family went to Yuba lake. that was some major major fun! so the first night we just swam cuz we got there a little late. The next day however, had glassy water in the morning. So i got up on the wake skate, went for a little bit then switched to the wake board. Then i decided to jump. so i did. I got about 8 in of air (says my family) and then.......i face planted. Now i'm incredibly sore. Even today. After that i just went tubing. :) I had a great time though! now i get to go to yellow stone!

Broadway Kidz Auditions

today i am trying out for broadway kidz :) and im a little nervous but im okay with it if im not kept :) cass is trying out with me :) and im excited. Well actually its more complicated than that but ya  :) wish me luck!

Praise to my mom!

My wonderful mother made all these dresses. It took her a long time, but it really paid off :) my dress has pockets :) it was the most complicated, and took us the most time. The flower in my hair, you can't see it but i made it :) anyway these are the dresses I LOVE mine :) hope everyone is having a good day. Signing off, Baylie

GIRLS CAMP!

   don't judge the picture :) it was pretty  much the only one i had. this is during our skit we did! I loved girls camp! it was really really great! i had so much fun! and i was a tent leader! which was majorly exciting! and my girls were great, even though we always stayed up late! :) i loved it! we had stake camp up and Heber Valley and it was fun.  our bus driver up was english. His name was Owen. He was a hoot. ON the way up, the bus we were following broke down. The accelerator came disconnected from the engine.and that bus came on our bus. Then i semi drove past and dropped some of its stuff on the freeway, and our bus driver ran out and grabbed it! the state patrol officer made sure that no cars went so owen didn't get run over. Then the week passed pretty uneventfully. On the way back we all slept on the floor of the bus. All except rachel and sammie, who were singing and talking and being themselves. All in all it was fun. The crafts were fantastic. The first craft was Bottle caps. We had bottle caps and paper, and we decorated the inside and/or outside to make necklaces, bracelets, magnets, and rings. the second craft was headbands. We covered headbands and made them pretty. CAmi, cassidy, and i made flowers. I am a slow learner, I admit, but i loved it!! I also learned this new cup game. it goes.... Parle vous Francais la re la ra la ray, parle vous, francais, la re la ra la ray. and you get faster and faster......its way way way fun! i just love it! and i made some great friends in the 9th and 5th wards! the moral of the story .......HAVE FUN!!

P.S. My camp name is Lucky Charms :) cuz im magically delicous!

Lake Powell

I just went to lake powell! i had a blast! we went on my cousins house boat. I found out that i have been going since i was 5...... and i didn't know..... how weird is that.... andyway. I had a blast! i got sunburned on my thighs! i was well done! lol ok well it was so much fun! and i really enjoyed it! i met the cutest little pregnant lady ever! she was awesome!. her little girl was really cute too!! i am hoping that ill be able to see eclipse today.. but we will see! well i love you guys! hopefully pictures will be coming soon!

Favorite styles!

ok i was looking online and i found this site called Mod cloth and its vintage inspired i think it said something about vintage....anyway the clothes are like 50$ + so anyway i have decided that they are just ideas anyway here are some that i really liked.

Anyway so i really like this style and these are all from mod cloth. :) just ideas  :) for posterity

A sobering reality. A spys life is a lonely life. If i were to go into the CIA i would never be able to tell you where i have been or why. I would never be able to tell you anything about my job. Sometimes you sacrifice things for good reasons. A spys life is full of mistrust. I trust you guys. Granted im not a spy. Not that i would tell you if i was. Mabye im looking to far into the future. Who knows, Mabye ill be the little school teacher that everyone loves. Mabye ill have 14 cats and no husband. My point is this, we dont know who we will be in 5 or 10 years. We can plan, and hope, but we dont know what we will go through in the future. That is probably a good thing. If i was told when i was 6 that i would actually have friends, i would have been hopeful but probably doubt it would happen. Sometimes you have to go through the trials to be able to look back and say that you have grown stronger. I know that this post is serious, but sometimes you need someone to slap you in the face with reality. In my case it happened to be a book/myself. Dont get me wrong i am not aiming for your face. Mabye you already know. Anyway sometimes we need to wake up. Its reality. And its not happy.

book blog

just a reminder for all of you who have forgotten..... (plus im bored bored bored!) my book blog has books, and my short story that im expanding on. I am soon going to be putting my previous story that i am still working on, but have not finished :) go ahead and take a look! thanks for reading!!
p.s. its called cozy book corner, look in my favorite blogs

Youth Conference! :D

I just went to youth conference at snow college :) so great! i had sosoo much fun! the ropes course was so fun!!! (even if i had to sing in order not to be scared) I had a GREAT GREAT time! our dorms were fantastic! the boys played a prank....hahah they silly stringed the laurels dorm, and poured water on them.... it was eventful!! then at 4 in the morning, i half sleep walked down the hall to another room, cuz i thought it was mine and that Whitney (sutton)(laurel) was gonna get mad at me for wearing her socks. even though i wasn't wearing her socks.....hahaha so very eventful! the dance was pretty much a downer....but then our leaders went to walmart and got us cards, and icecream! so we had fun! and then we went to the Manti pagaent and it was great! some of it was way dramatic, but it was mostly spiritual! oh and all of this isn't neccessarily in order....just so ya know. the water games we did in cloudy weather so it was really cold! but it was fun!! i had a counseler named STEPH, and she was really great!

AlRiGhT aLrIgHt alright alright alright HEY! (clap) EFY!

THE CHOSEN WARRIORS

EFY

I am so glad i went to EFY! it was like the most amazing experience of my life!! i just can't even describe it!!! we were the chosen warriors :) we are amazing! i am so glad i came!! i love all of you!!!!! I love you!!!!!!!!!!

movies! {as inspired by britt :)}

some of my new/old favorite movies!!

• Sherlock Holmes: "madame i am a professional....under this pillow lies the key to my release"
• How to train your dragon: "thankyou for nothing you useless reptile"  "you just gestured to all of me!"
• Italian Job: "you know what fine stands for? freaked out, insecure, neurotic, and emotional."
• Blind Side: "You threaten my son, you threaten me."
• Tooth Fairy: "good luck finding your cars"
• Iron Man: "I mean doesn't it kind of defeat the whole purpose of having your own plane if it departs before you arrive?"

ok my fav tv shows.... :) drumroll...

• Merlin: "What is wrong with this horse? It's even dumber than you Merlin!"
• Bones: "Anger is only fear turned inwards"
• So you think you can dance: Fav winner? jeanine
• Mentalist: "Revenge is a poison. Revenge is fit only for fools and madmen.

well thats pretty much it! :) hahah merlin is my fav ever! i love arthurnian tales!

Personal progress retreat!!

well i finished my personal progress and therfore got to go on a snazzy retreat, and it was snazzy! i don't have all of the AWESOME pics we took but i do have a picture of the house! WOWSERS!! i LOVE LO Ve LOVE it!

school pictures :)

its small but youll have to deal with it! lol

Happy Birthday CLAIR!

My dear friend clair had a birthday! Now sh'es 15 :D
 Reasons Clair is GREAT!
1. she smiles ALL THE TIME!
2. She reads the greatest books
3. She might just be the nicest person on earth
4. She is like a fish....she couldn't live without water... well none of us could but ya'll know what i mean
5. She always brightens my day :) always

I have known clair since i was 6. But we didn't really become good friends until 4th Grade when i didn't have any friends and she let me join her group. Ever since then we have been great friends. :) We played signs, quelf, and other odd games mrs. Arminen gave us to try. Clair really made my life amazing. If she wouldn't have been my friend, well who knows if i would even have any. For all we know i could have been a druggie in a corner..... well mabye not. id like to think myself a little more responsible.....but think what you may. :) Even now that she has moved away, we have always kept in touch. I look forward to the day when i can see her in person again. :) 
Happy Birthday CLAIR! i hope you have had a wonderful one!

Why can't i procrastinate? Why can't i skip school? Is it because im destined for something greater? Should i be doing these things because im not? Am i destined for something greater? Are we? Is everyone destined for something but little choices slowly bring up down?

hey im blogging

im blogging....im so tired.... but i must... lol i sound completly crazy! you know whats really helpful? sparknotes.com i love that place! go there and love it! picture day was today... i prob had a floating head I wore a white shirt against a white...haha

its amazing how much things can make you smile :)

Language fair...and uh some other stuff that i can't remember the name of at the moment...

Byu Language fair sooo fun! thats my bro and me :)

this is me and my friend emma :) she's so sweet :) we are matchy matchy and well im photosynthesezing :D

Byu language fair! thats my aunt Brenda! on my cheek it says CTR in chinese and on my hand it says virtue. Ashtons cheeks say handsome devil lol

this is the  EPIC PICURE

I took it well actually my mom took it but i set it up! AH i LOVE IT!!!

anyway thats all for now! love ya! :D

At this moment in time i am writing my short story for english. I dont know what its called yet but its gonna be good i can feel it :) anyway on my book Blog i am going to be posting a chapter a week. Only a chapter cuz i cant fit the whole thing on there. Mind you this is only a short story so i didnt go into a lot of detail and its not the best writing cuz im not an author yet :) another thing... If you guys have a twitter you can follow me. Im Bayliebenson :) Haha so anyway i call it my little bursts of happiness :D Haha well thats pretty much everything. Love you!!! Thanks for reading!!!

relaxation? me? oh ya...right

so I've been pretty busy. like REALLY busy. Tonight i got inducted into the Summit chapter of the National Junior Honors Society. way fun. uh huh. anyway so my friends were there and it was cool :) heres a picture.

Oh yes we're hot we know

ok my computer just messed up my typing so anyway. Tomorrow I'm going to BYU to do this Language fair. Its gonna be super fun and i'm really excited because well i get to jumprope and eat yummy food and everything :) i will post pictures later. OH i found the perfect example of how LAZY the world is.

1. the new and improved Wrap Around Pony, cuz we can't do it ourselves........ right

2. Bumpits..... wow handy SOMETIMES not everyday in my opinion of course

3. ok drumroll please....................CLIP IN BANGS hahahhahahahah i mean wow right? i just laugh

guilty!

ok now i feel sorta like a hipocrate since i haven't posted in like a week and i just chastised my young womens leader  for not posting in a while, so anyway couple of updates.

 1. spring break was ok kinda boring truthfully, but i lived. i survived by reading the restof the harry potter books. :) for like the millioneth time. anyway love peaace happiness laughter... ya :) oh and the picture. well i love zions more than like anyplace on earth. I found this picture of me and kaitlyn abe :) shes still taller than me lol. thisis from 2005 so i am 10  huh long time!

2. my new favorite thing is Pandora! oh its like ear candy! yes im gonna call it that no no no Brain candy! yes ok its so awesome  (and free) that its brain candy.

3. my mom is at scrapaway which means that i get to be the mom of the house. well mini mom. so far its going well. singing to disney songs and getting dinner on the table  are my specialties so why not combine?!

Happy Birthday MOM and DAD!

A couple of reasons why i love my mom...

1.  i dont think i have ever talk bad about any one. well except the drivers on the road..... :D
2. even though we argue, she always gives sound advice. Even if sometimes i don't listen, i regret it later
3. When  we go shopping, its crazy lol we are just so funny. well i think we are funny :)
4. shes a polysomnographer. I mean how cool is that? i mean wow! she could work for the FBI/CIA!
5. when i call her at work we always have a good conversation about my day and her patients and i love it :)

I just love my mom!!! Happy 39th Birthday mom! (March 26, 1971)

A couple of reasons why i love my dad......

1. me and him have the same sense of humor.... sorta.
2. we both like the same topics. like in books.
3. even when we argue and argue, in the end i usually come out being wiser than i was
4. he is so funny. he just makes me laugh.
5. we have the same taste in music :) in fact i get most of my  music from him... :)

in short i love my dad even when we fight. Happy 39th Birthday DAD! (March 6, 1971)

Fablehaven 5 is a fantastic book it was great!!! Really the whole series is fantastic!!! I wont spoil it for anyone but you guys just have to read it i mean really truly its amazing:)

BoOkS!!!!

fowolling the example of my fellow bloggers.... lol ok so i don't know if you guys knew this but i have a book blog. its called the cozy corner of books with jazz :) orsomething like that. if you go to my favorite blogs on the right side youll see the link :) books i espcially enjoyed are there... i am trying to post more so :)

 okwell thats asmuch as i have patience for at the moment so goodbye. check out my blog

We ArE tHe ChAmPiOnS!!!

WE ARE THE CHAMPIoNS!!!! and i played a litte bit and i made a steal pictures coming soon :D:D :D <# ya! though still mad at coach a bit

a couple of points

a couple things.
1. I HATE being a bench warmer and then being wrongly accused of being not there wow really?
2. i am just sweating through my eyes. NOT crying
3. anyone else kindof afraid of  the foreign exchange students?! i am :)

let me explain the whole bench warmer thing. so I had a game today and i was soooo pumped! i was making  shots before it started and i was getting excited, and then coach told me at halftime he probablywouldn't put me in. and he didn't. you wanna know why? cuz he said i missed 2 weeks of practice. I missed 1 and it was because i was sick and my mom wrote the coach a note saying that i couldn't go. the note never got deliverd apparently. But thats not the only problem. this is not the first time i have been  left out of a game. and guess what there are 2 other people who have been gone for a week or more and he NEVER made them miss a game. THis is the only season where i have actually considered quitting basketball. seriously considered it. but i decided that i wasn't a quiter. oh and my mom decided that its her problem but its not but whatever. my team stood up for me today :) well at least myfriends on the team :) anyway so tell me do you think its fair that i got benched? i think its kinda hypocritical. wow anyway thats my story. oh wait the whole sweating throughmy eyes thing. well i admit i cried after thegame today. even though we won.

bucket list

buscket list: or things i have never done that i need to do....

1. i have never been to Jamba juice
2. I have never been paintballing
3. I have never shot nor even  held an airsoft gun
4. I have only been in the mall hphoto booth things with the filmstrip that come out....once
5 i have never been on a date (butthat wont happen for another 6 months.. :))

thats all i can think of at the moment :)D :)D

Science fair:Regional :)

 good news: I won a environmental award, from the Jane Goodall Institute. its an Environmental Recognition Award, for Exellence in Environmental Research. Pretty darn Snazzy :) out of all of them i alone got this award :) please please i know you're silently applauding but here comes the bad news

Bad news:  i didn't make state

which you know i think is kindof bogus but whatever cuz I got a certificate, participation ribbon, a statue trophy of some sort, and pens. not just any pens RECYCABLE pens :) good ball point pens that WORK! and the people who went on to state got a medal, a participation ribbon, and a paper. no pens for them. therefore i am snazzy and they are just smart. hahahah but im snazzy and smart  :D:D:D so pictures of my display coming soon. i haven't gotten around to taking pictures except for on my dads phone, so ya :)

GOOD NEWS!!

I DONT HAVE STREP!!! YAY!!!!

Right now im on my way to the doctors office cuz my mom thinks i have Strep. With good cause i suppose. Yesterday i felt like all the battles of the civil war were going on inside my body. It literally hurt to move. Literally. I thought it would go away, so i went to school, ya and it got worse. I didnt want to go home cuz it is school and i had to talk to my science teacher about science fair. So i went home after that and i had a good cry and then found out i had a fever. So now my mother is convinced that i have Strep. This is why im not at school :)

Angus, thongs, and perfect snogging

ok BEST movie ever!!! its much better than the name suggests!! especially if you like to laugh, and thank your stars that your not that dramatic :) lol so ya. They ALL speak with BRITISH accents!! even the boys *sigh* wow i love boys who speak in accents :) so anyway like the best movie ever!!! lol so so so so so funny! great CHICK flick, and its a little more mature so don't bring people who wont understnad. its not mature in a bad way, but you gotta know what their talking about for it to be funny. <3 ya!!!

mymom was a poet and i didn't even know it!

k so my mom brought some stuff up from a box she brought up from downstairs. among this was a notebook with about 10 pages of quotes. and some of them were by her. so therefor i am posting them :) love ya mom!(ps dont kill me :))


"depression slowly settles in
like a cold white snowfall
layer upon layer until the
once warm heart is hidden
in the icy flakes.
Suddenly without warnig a ray of sunshine manages to
penetrate; but the frozen
heart, temporarily thawed,
bleeds drops of sorrow
and longs to be blanketed by
the cold once again"
Nikkie (october 1989)



perfection
the ultimate goal;
reaching, stretching,
but always falling short.
nikkie



(ok this next one is by her best friend karen but I loved it therefore i am posting it)
Occasionally, we all wilt, sag and dry-
and in the end we all must die.
Death is inveitable, life is uncertain.
Laugh and cry and live and die.
Sorrow must end just as happiness
must end.
Karen (july 1989)



the call
exitement, expectation
frustration
why me?
Curiosity, confusion,
conflict
Goodbye!
anger, hope, laughter
Lingering on...
Nikkie



Him
that captivating smile
the tender look
yes or no
do what is right
temptaion, novelty, adventure
excitement
what does it all mean?
emotional seesaw
up and down
Is he worth it?
Nikkie

The ring of a phone
Is it him?
Why doesn’t he call?
Is he trying to avoid me?
Is there someone else?
the ring of a phone
Its him, he’s been out,
he misses me and
wants to see me.
he loves me, he loves me not,
a continuous circle of doubt
Nikkie



I walk alone among the crowds with
the sea of unfamiliar faces flowing past me.
I watch a seagull soar over the ocean and
with it goes my petty discontentment’s.
I look into the faces of strangers and feel
exhilarated by the realization that through them I
have finally found freedom.
Nikkie






the tender look
yes or no
do what is right
temptaion, novely, adventure
exitement
what does it all mean?
emotional seesaw
up and down
Is he worth it?
Nikkie

like i said pretty shocking well to me anyway. many hidden talents my mother has :)
P.S so hard to fiind a picture of her alone cuz she was always with my dad so this pic is in paris and ya :) love ya mom!!

Science fair.....cont....

I MADE DISTRICT FOR THE SCIENCE FAIR!!!!!! WOOT WOOT!!!! so now I get to go on :) yay