The other day was the beginning of fall :) i have so many memories i can't keep them straight, mostly of broadway kidz. but i look back and there was girls camp and youth conference. Yesterday Diane dropped off some pictures, and i love them :) its so great, too bad i can't put um into digatal form :) anyway here is some pics :)
President: Cassidy
Vice President: Baylie
Secretary: Mallory
Historian: Brittany, Kylee
This is the Women's choir presidency :) im so excited. all of these girls are amazing, and im just way excited!!
Driving: ok overall im ok. i haven't killed anyone yet :) and i went on the free way at 5:00 this morning and i lived. I can't park though. im a terrible parker :) lol. oh and i found out that you're not supposed to drive a car with 2 feet :) don't judge :) i love life and thanks for listening to ramblings :)
Broadway kidz: bk is over :( but i now know so many new friends :) and i just love them all and i can't wait to see them again. heres one picture. Ill post more soon.
"Friendship is certainly the finest balm for the pangs of disappointed love."— Jane Austen
thats a great quote! anyway. I am NOT in 42nd street. but hey i am perfectly ok with it because i now have more homework time. :) hey on the 9,10,11, 13 is broadway kidz. Both cass and i would appreciate it if you came! thanks for reading my ramblings!
ready? how is it that love songs are always the best songs, dirty ones are always the most catchy, and the ones that swear are the ones you want to sing? I made that up! im just bored and waiting for them to post the final cast list. i think they're postingit tomorrow actually.... but ya whatever. :) im really quite bored.... and nobody is txting me so extra bored....wow thats pathetic! a girl, its friday and her whole sadness is cuz people wont txt her.... wow im gonna go read a book! OH yeah look at me! woohoo!!
yes i did i made callbacks! as a DANCER! bahahahaha i was so faking my tap! but guess what? im really gonna try tomorrow and i really hope i get in! thanks for supporting me in all that i do! i love you guys! also
come to broadway kidz magic. On september 9,10,11, and 13! be there or be Diamond! (cassidy said it not me!) thanks! come see both cass and i and you will love it!
im trying out for the musical today! wish me luck! i love you! i am going to be 16 in like a month and a half! so scary!! ah! i love my classes and im making some really great friends. so far im lovin highschool! key club meeting tomorrow! im joining!
I really truly do and i just love everyone. I want to go out for choir presidency as the vice president! I love choir! anyway i love alta and its just the best!! I LOVE YOU!
today was not as bad as i thought it would be and i'm happy. it still feels like a dream, but i know its reality. anyway after school, i started to finish (oxymoron) my homework and ended up taking a 2 hour power nap. :) so now i'm ready to go to bed again. so i can get up on time for early morning seminary. I love my seminary class. and I've only been in there a day. I have brother Campbell, and i just love him. anyway. if this sounds sleepy its cuz i am! love you all! hope you all had good first days as well.
OK before i post this. today i woke up at 7 am. to change my schedule. i didn't leave until 10. 3 hours and the counselor told me there wasn't a possible way to change my schedule lol. i'm cool though. just thought it was funny!
1 German 3 H Carmiol
2 Chemistry H Tucker
3 L.A. 10 H Lantis
4 Choir Frederick
5 Pre-calc Courtney
6 Drivers ed Brown
7 World history AP Adams
8 consumer health Paskins
The second semester is the same except 6th i have a business manegment class and 8th i have comp tech
i have nothing to post. im going shopping today and knowing me i wont get much.im terrible at shopping. i need a teacher. Any takers? im really busy. but so idle at the same time. does that make sense? no ok well it makes sense to me! i mostly read check the book blog to see what ive been reading (and writing)
You know you dont need boys and clothes and Jewlry to be happy. The one thing that has the ability to make up happy is ourselves. :) sometimes we feel down but sooner or later we have to come up! And be happy. Right now i am happy. Happy happy happy. Not a hysteric hyper happy, but a completly satisfied happy. if you learn from your mistakes, you will be going in the right direction. I want all of you to be as happy as i am. Be confident in yourself, not what others think you are. Cuz you are the only one who can call the shots:) be happy cuz Youll be happier that way :) :) :)
yay! I am now a sophomore at ALTA! and i don't know how to spell apparently lol ok well anyway. I have homework already! its crazy! i would give ya'll my schedule but i am prob gonna change it. this is a short post because truly i have nothing to post. nothing interesting is happened lately. not really anyway. oh GUESS WHAT?! at Alta, they have a Psychology club!!! and a United Nations club! and a Polynesian club.like wow! i am so so so so EXCITED!!
I have officially decided!!! i am going to be a linguist!! oh and i learned what an ameeba is today!! and i am learning hip hop! broadway kids is really kickin my butt!! lol i have had a great summer and wish it wouldn't end!!! oh well! i love everyone!! oh and boys...... have cooties hehehe
Prologue
Randall Slater stepped into the high rise office, and closed the door.
"Is everything set?" Jimmy Blake said, turning his leather chair around.
"Everything will be perfect." Randall said, standing in front of the desk.
" The girl is prepared? She knows what to do?" Jimmy asked, eyes boring into Randall's skull. "Because if this plan fails, your time is up" he said smoothly, leaning back. Giving the position of indifference. Randall did not flinch. His boss was dangerous, but if you did what he asked, you were safe.
"Everything is set and ready. No one will suspect." Randall consoled, quietly confidant.
"It better be." Jimmy said, turning his attention to the papers on his desk. Randall recognized a dismissal when he saw one. He let himself out.
Jimmy Blake had been waiting for this plan to go into action for 17 years. He was patient. Finally he would get back at the couple that almost brought his downfall. Now they were going to fall. He chuckled to himself. They would never know what hit them
(to read more please go to my book blog) (see my favorites)
I made it into Broadway kidz!!! Cass and i both did! its so exciting! I'm so excited!
My weekend of triumph was based on one wake board ride. but ill get to that later. First, last Sunday (the 18th) my cousins from the Ukraine, Anastasia and Masha (aka Maria), were baptized. Then on Tuesday they were sealed to their parents in the temple. THEN, on Thursday my family and their family went to Yuba lake. that was some major major fun! so the first night we just swam cuz we got there a little late. The next day however, had glassy water in the morning. So i got up on the wake skate, went for a little bit then switched to the wake board. Then i decided to jump. so i did. I got about 8 in of air (says my family) and then.......i face planted. Now i'm incredibly sore. Even today. After that i just went tubing. :) I had a great time though! now i get to go to yellow stone!
today i am trying out for broadway kidz :) and im a little nervous but im okay with it if im not kept :) cass is trying out with me :) and im excited. Well actually its more complicated than that but ya :) wish me luck!
I just went to lake powell! i had a blast! we went on my cousins house boat. I found out that i have been going since i was 5...... and i didn't know..... how weird is that.... andyway. I had a blast! i got sunburned on my thighs! i was well done! lol ok well it was so much fun! and i really enjoyed it! i met the cutest little pregnant lady ever! she was awesome!. her little girl was really cute too!! i am hoping that ill be able to see eclipse today.. but we will see! well i love you guys! hopefully pictures will be coming soon!
A sobering reality. A spys life is a lonely life. If i were to go into the CIA i would never be able to tell you where i have been or why. I would never be able to tell you anything about my job. Sometimes you sacrifice things for good reasons. A spys life is full of mistrust. I trust you guys. Granted im not a spy. Not that i would tell you if i was. Mabye im looking to far into the future. Who knows, Mabye ill be the little school teacher that everyone loves. Mabye ill have 14 cats and no husband. My point is this, we dont know who we will be in 5 or 10 years. We can plan, and hope, but we dont know what we will go through in the future. That is probably a good thing. If i was told when i was 6 that i would actually have friends, i would have been hopeful but probably doubt it would happen. Sometimes you have to go through the trials to be able to look back and say that you have grown stronger. I know that this post is serious, but sometimes you need someone to slap you in the face with reality. In my case it happened to be a book/myself. Dont get me wrong i am not aiming for your face. Mabye you already know. Anyway sometimes we need to wake up. Its reality. And its not happy.
just a reminder for all of you who have forgotten..... (plus im bored bored bored!) my book blog has books, and my short story that im expanding on. I am soon going to be putting my previous story that i am still working on, but have not finished :) go ahead and take a look! thanks for reading!!
p.s. its called cozy book corner, look in my favorite blogs
I just went to youth conference at snow college :) so great! i had sosoo much fun! the ropes course was so fun!!! (even if i had to sing in order not to be scared) I had a GREAT GREAT time! our dorms were fantastic! the boys played a prank....hahah they silly stringed the laurels dorm, and poured water on them.... it was eventful!! then at 4 in the morning, i half sleep walked down the hall to another room, cuz i thought it was mine and that Whitney (sutton)(laurel) was gonna get mad at me for wearing her socks. even though i wasn't wearing her socks.....hahaha so very eventful! the dance was pretty much a downer....but then our leaders went to walmart and got us cards, and icecream! so we had fun! and then we went to the Manti pagaent and it was great! some of it was way dramatic, but it was mostly spiritual! oh and all of this isn't neccessarily in order....just so ya know. the water games we did in cloudy weather so it was really cold! but it was fun!! i had a counseler named STEPH, and she was really great!
some of my new/old favorite movies!!
My dear friend clair had a birthday! Now sh'es 15 :D
Reasons Clair is GREAT!
1. she smiles ALL THE TIME!
2. She reads the greatest books
3. She might just be the nicest person on earth
4. She is like a fish....she couldn't live without water... well none of us could but ya'll know what i mean
5. She always brightens my day :) always
I have known clair since i was 6. But we didn't really become good friends until 4th Grade when i didn't have any friends and she let me join her group. Ever since then we have been great friends. :) We played signs, quelf, and other odd games mrs. Arminen gave us to try. Clair really made my life amazing. If she wouldn't have been my friend, well who knows if i would even have any. For all we know i could have been a druggie in a corner..... well mabye not. id like to think myself a little more responsible.....but think what you may. :) Even now that she has moved away, we have always kept in touch. I look forward to the day when i can see her in person again. :)
Happy Birthday CLAIR! i hope you have had a wonderful one!
Why can't i procrastinate? Why can't i skip school? Is it because im destined for something greater? Should i be doing these things because im not? Am i destined for something greater? Are we? Is everyone destined for something but little choices slowly bring up down?
At this moment in time i am writing my short story for english. I dont know what its called yet but its gonna be good i can feel it :) anyway on my book Blog i am going to be posting a chapter a week. Only a chapter cuz i cant fit the whole thing on there. Mind you this is only a short story so i didnt go into a lot of detail and its not the best writing cuz im not an author yet :) another thing... If you guys have a twitter you can follow me. Im Bayliebenson :) Haha so anyway i call it my little bursts of happiness :D Haha well thats pretty much everything. Love you!!! Thanks for reading!!!
so I've been pretty busy. like REALLY busy. Tonight i got inducted into the Summit chapter of the National Junior Honors Society. way fun. uh huh. anyway so my friends were there and it was cool :) heres a picture.
Fablehaven 5 is a fantastic book it was great!!! Really the whole series is fantastic!!! I wont spoil it for anyone but you guys just have to read it i mean really truly its amazing:)
fowolling the example of my fellow bloggers.... lol ok so i don't know if you guys knew this but i have a book blog. its called the cozy corner of books with jazz :) orsomething like that. if you go to my favorite blogs on the right side youll see the link :) books i espcially enjoyed are there... i am trying to post more so :) 
okwell thats asmuch as i have patience for at the moment so goodbye. check out my blogWE ARE THE CHAMPIoNS!!!! and i played a litte bit and i made a steal pictures coming soon :D:D :D <# ya! though still mad at coach a bit
a couple things.
1. I HATE being a bench warmer and then being wrongly accused of being not there wow really?
2. i am just sweating through my eyes. NOT crying
3. anyone else kindof afraid of the foreign exchange students?! i am :)
let me explain the whole bench warmer thing. so I had a game today and i was soooo pumped! i was making shots before it started and i was getting excited, and then coach told me at halftime he probablywouldn't put me in. and he didn't. you wanna know why? cuz he said i missed 2 weeks of practice. I missed 1 and it was because i was sick and my mom wrote the coach a note saying that i couldn't go. the note never got deliverd apparently. But thats not the only problem. this is not the first time i have been left out of a game. and guess what there are 2 other people who have been gone for a week or more and he NEVER made them miss a game. THis is the only season where i have actually considered quitting basketball. seriously considered it. but i decided that i wasn't a quiter. oh and my mom decided that its her problem but its not but whatever. my team stood up for me today :) well at least myfriends on the team :) anyway so tell me do you think its fair that i got benched? i think its kinda hypocritical. wow anyway thats my story. oh wait the whole sweating throughmy eyes thing. well i admit i cried after thegame today. even though we won.
buscket list: or things i have never done that i need to do....
1. i have never been to Jamba juice
2. I have never been paintballing
3. I have never shot nor even held an airsoft gun
4. I have only been in the mall hphoto booth things with the filmstrip that come out....once
5 i have never been on a date (butthat wont happen for another 6 months.. :))
thats all i can think of at the moment :)D :)D
good news: I won a environmental award, from the Jane Goodall Institute. its an Environmental Recognition Award, for Exellence in Environmental Research. Pretty darn Snazzy :) out of all of them i alone got this award :) please please i know you're silently applauding but here comes the bad news
Bad news: i didn't make state
which you know i think is kindof bogus but whatever cuz I got a certificate, participation ribbon, a statue trophy of some sort, and pens. not just any pens RECYCABLE pens :) good ball point pens that WORK! and the people who went on to state got a medal, a participation ribbon, and a paper. no pens for them. therefore i am snazzy and they are just smart. hahahah but im snazzy and smart :D:D:D so pictures of my display coming soon. i haven't gotten around to taking pictures except for on my dads phone, so ya :)
Right now im on my way to the doctors office cuz my mom thinks i have Strep. With good cause i suppose. Yesterday i felt like all the battles of the civil war were going on inside my body. It literally hurt to move. Literally. I thought it would go away, so i went to school, ya and it got worse. I didnt want to go home cuz it is school and i had to talk to my science teacher about science fair. So i went home after that and i had a good cry and then found out i had a fever. So now my mother is convinced that i have Strep. This is why im not at school :)
ok BEST movie ever!!! its much better than the name suggests!! especially if you like to laugh, and thank your stars that your not that dramatic :) lol so ya. They ALL speak with BRITISH accents!! even the boys *sigh* wow i love boys who speak in accents :) so anyway like the best movie ever!!! lol so so so so so funny! great CHICK flick, and its a little more mature so don't bring people who wont understnad. its not mature in a bad way, but you gotta know what their talking about for it to be funny. <3 ya!!!
k so my mom brought some stuff up from a box she brought up from downstairs. among this was a notebook with about 10 pages of quotes. and some of them were by her. so therefor i am posting them :) love ya mom!(ps dont kill me :))
"depression slowly settles in
like a cold white snowfall
layer upon layer until the
once warm heart is hidden
in the icy flakes.
Suddenly without warnig a ray of sunshine manages to
penetrate; but the frozen
heart, temporarily thawed,
bleeds drops of sorrow
and longs to be blanketed by
the cold once again"
Nikkie (october 1989)
perfection
the ultimate goal;
reaching, stretching,
but always falling short.
nikkie
(ok this next one is by her best friend karen but I loved it therefore i am posting it)
Occasionally, we all wilt, sag and dry-
and in the end we all must die.
Death is inveitable, life is uncertain.
Laugh and cry and live and die.
Sorrow must end just as happiness
must end.
Karen (july 1989)
the call
exitement, expectation
frustration
why me?
Curiosity, confusion,
conflict
Goodbye!
anger, hope, laughter
Lingering on...
Nikkie
Him
that captivating smile
the tender look
yes or no
do what is right
temptaion, novelty, adventure
excitement
what does it all mean?
emotional seesaw
up and down
Is he worth it?
Nikkie
The ring of a phone
Is it him?
Why doesn’t he call?
Is he trying to avoid me?
Is there someone else?
the ring of a phone
Its him, he’s been out,
he misses me and
wants to see me.
he loves me, he loves me not,
a continuous circle of doubt
Nikkie
I walk alone among the crowds with
the sea of unfamiliar faces flowing past me.
I watch a seagull soar over the ocean and
with it goes my petty discontentment’s.
I look into the faces of strangers and feel
exhilarated by the realization that through them I
have finally found freedom.
Nikkie
the tender look
yes or no
do what is right
temptaion, novely, adventure
exitement
what does it all mean?
emotional seesaw
up and down
Is he worth it?
Nikkie
I MADE DISTRICT FOR THE SCIENCE FAIR!!!!!! WOOT WOOT!!!! so now I get to go on :) yay
Have you ever felt completly devoid of emotion? Or past feeling? Thats how i feel now. Whenever this happens its usually because of 2 things 1. Tiredness and 2. Arguments sometimes (which means alot) this happens
I am so so so sick of science fair! I truly truly truly am! This year I did a science fair project on solar panels, and how if you use a solar panel to run your christmas lights your energy bill will go down. I also found out that if you don't want to invest in a solar panel then simply switching your christmas lights to LED christmas lights can save you about $8.93 per season of christmas lights. pretty technical I know but ya it should be great. Ok i do have to admit the only thing I hate about science fair is the stinkin report! I like the experiments but the report is torture!!! ugh! why can't this just be awesome instead of UGH! so anyway yes.
P.S. I might be posting from my phone from now on. cuz I have no more time.... becuase of my stinkin schedule!
my aunt inspired this :) here are a couple of my craziest dreams
#1
I was part of this witch group getting my soul and someone was trying to kill me so I wouldn't get my soul back, then I somehow appeared among the lamanites (who looked strangly like polynesians) and they tried to throw me in a volcano (this is one of my more civil dreams)
#2
Lexie killed everyone in my family then came after me with a butcher knife
#3
I was a detective, trying to find a killer in a 3 floor house, she was killing every one in her family. her dad on the first floor, her best friend on the second, then all the sudden I was the mom and I thought I was persauding her to put the knife down, then she hugged me and stabbed me in the back (I actually felt the pressure...), then she pushed my dead body down the basement stairs. (now I'm the detective again) the basement was unfinished, and she threw the knife at me, i doged it but she ran back up the stairs. (now I'm the coroner who comes into the entry hall at the same time as a beautiful woman does) I recognize the woman as my ex fiance, who went to rehab the same time as me, we both had a alchohol problem, then a girl whos covered in blood comes and hugs her, and I find out that its her sister. then she says she has to arrest her, and I find out my ex is a cop now. and then her sister runs up to the attic. (now Im the sister/ex fiance)my ex fiance is there but i have to arrest my sister, I run up to the attic and apprehend my sister. then I talk to my ex find out hes still single and we plan a date... (thats when I woke up scared out of my mind)
#4
in the woods I found 2 bodies floating in a pool (lit a pool) full of blood. I'm the detective trying to find out who did it. me and my partner conclude that its not just the 2 womens blood but others, then we find that its the whole osmond family. I hide be hind a tree with my camera and then a light comes towards my partner (then i wake up)
ever since I started watching CSI and stuff well I have had some pretty scary dreams... haha I almost always die. but i get over it :) eventually :)
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these are my dads favorites, and i can't figure out how to download more so whatever these ones are cute. which ones your fav?
I have just barely discovered the wonderfulness of newsies :) it is a great movie!!! i love it!! oh dear ok I am really into broadway right now! I love it alot!! can you tell?! well broadway and movies that is... ok in newsies, there is christain bale, yes he sings, and its the same director of high school musical, this is like in teh 80's. I personally like davie, and christain isn't too bad himself. Anyway its a musical, I don't know if told you that already. THe guy in While you were sleeping, the brother is in it. it amazes me how many of these people are still alive, wow and sorta young, wow wow wow anyway some of them are like my parents age..... yikes kinda scary to think about. that was like 30 years ago! I love this movie! so you should see it.
ok broadway, there is this broadway station on my radio that I listen to alot. I'm startin to really enjoy the songs from guys and dolls. its pretty awesom. the song I mean I dont even know the story or plot of the acutal play but the music is cool.
these are my brothers words as we look at clair and cassidys blog. He has declared his love for her, and has decided that he is going to marry her...
ashton:mommy I saw the girl I'm gonna marry today
mom:who?
ashton:one of Baylie's friends...a big one!
mom: which one?
ashton: you know the big one!!!
mom: caitlin? clair? annika? cassidy-
ashton:YA cassidy :)
oh and the picture....you guessed it, its of cassidy
PS eveyone is big to him so dont take offense :)
Cinderella by roger and hammersteins! I love the ballroom the singing! I just love it!
