Sort of

I'm posting again! I know surprising since its so soon! I figured I would post!
I think I'm finally letting go. which is good! I'm still waiting to hear from BYU-I. We shall see what happens!! I really really want to go! It just feels right.
Right now life is so crazy. My face is breaking out, I'm losing my hair, I can't sleep, and I cant eat or sleep. The cause of this? Stress. I go to school. I go to work. I go back to school. I sleep. I go to school. I go to work. I go back to school. I sleep. Repeat. My life is so busy that I can't think. I no longer have motivation because I have no idea why I'm making myself so miserable. I'm trying to hang in there. I just have to take some deep breaths and remember that the Lord knows who I am and he's looking out for me. I'm really trying hard to rely on the Lord in EVERYTHING I do. It's proving to be hard! I want to be independent, and then I figure out that I can't do it on my own. I'm learning that its okay to be sad and disappointed sometimes. Ultimately it will work out for the better and it will turn out okay. I just need to trust in the Lord and stop trying to control my life. I need to just let go! Easier said than done eh?
I'm sorry my blog posts are so depressing! I am happy! I'm just learning!
Love you all! Thanks for reading! :)

Sort of - Ingrid Michaelson

Thanksgiving

Madrigals Fieldtrip!

Sometimes the most simple things in life make you the most happy.

Temple Square with Kenzi!

Sometimes you just need a new perspective.

I make my own story.

The most human color, blue.

Hello my friends :) this girl has been busy. I'm sorry I haven't posted for a while. Let me give you a couple of updates.

1. It's been 2 months since I broke up with Morgan. Why does this matter? Cuz it still hurts, and I still want him but he will go out of his way to avoid and ignore me. He hasn't said a word to me since we broke up. He avoids me in the halls. Anyways, it hurts. I
don't know how to make it better.
2. I really hate school. It's full of a bunch of kids who think that it's everything to be popular, when on reality no one cares once you leave high school. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one who sees the world after high school. I know that's not true, but sometimes that's what it feels like.
3. I'm all finished applying to colleges! I applied to USU, BYU, and BYU- Idaho. If I'm accepted, I want to go to BYU-Idaho. I went and visited and I knew that it was the place for me to go. I'm going to major in Sociology with a minor in communications and a cluster in global terrorism :) I'm so excited. You have no idea. I'm gonna room with my good friend Cassidy, and possibly Quin. We are going to have a blast.
4. I ran Ragnar this past weekend. It was super hard. There was 35-40 mph winds almost the whole time. But I did it as got a cool medal for doing 2 Ragnars in 1 year. Fun stuff.
5. Oh yeah. I'm 18. My birthday was the 25th of October. Ya I'm an adult. It's weird to say how old I am. I know that's its right, but it hasn't sunk in yet.

Well that's my life. Any questions, comments, concerns, or advice? Please post it. I love hearing from you :)
Song cred: Blue Lips: Regina Spektor

Running Ragnar

Ragnar

Ragnar

Hello me!

Ragnar

These are my dear friends Quin and Quinn who are dating. eachother. obviously

Halloween dance

Halloween

Oh Madrigals...

Finally got to vote! not that I did anything special..

Madrigals

Special Needs Seminary

Seminary

School?

Sometimes....

Halloween

Birthday Picture

STORY OF MY LIFE

Halloween

Seminary

Take a walk - Passion Pit

Dear readers,
There is a lot i must explain to you since it has been 2 months since i last posted. Life has been a little crazy, with a couple drops of normalcy.
1.the first thing i must tell you is that i am single. as of a week ago. sudden i know. I KNOW. but I'm  perfectly happy in my single state. next.
2. EFY changed my life. I'm not just saying that, I mean i literally had a whole paradigm shift. I really understand who Christ is. I am working to improve the minimal relationship i have had with him. I have learned that i need to rely on Christ and trust in him instead of pushing any kind of help away. We can't progress in this life alone. This is why we have families, friends, spouses, roommates  etc. We were never meant to be hermits.which is why I'm working on being a person who accepts all and doesn't blow anything out of proportion. its hard.
3. Senioritis has set in and it is KILLING ME. I just want to be done. I want senior year to be over. I'm sick of the kids who try to be cool. if everyone would just realize that we all are different and equal in our own way, the world would be a better place. Our country was founded on equality not on cliques.
4. I am applying to college. Its stressing me out. Any of you older and wiser people can leave tips for me anytime.
5. I am in special needs seminary! it is the best thing that i could have been asked to be put in. Those kids, are really the choicest spirits of heavenly father. I have such love for them. I can't explain it, but they have equally as much love for me as anyone else. It is really the most amazing thing that i get to experience.

Basically my life is a complicated busy mess. I'm slowly trying to bridle it in. Its a work in progress.as you can see,

Signing off for now,
Baylie Benson

"cast not away thy confidence" Jeffery R Holland 1999 look it up. best talk ever given.

this boy is in Brazil right now, serving the lord. Love you Elder Swallow!

Parachute Concert! WOOT WOOT!

some of the Mads singing :) at a foot ball game!

Tessa, my kick butt Texan. Love this girl to death. EFY

EFY girls :)

Tavia drew this! the woman is talented! EFY

Lose yourself in the music, the moment..

Wow. It's been a while. Like a really long time. So sorry. I have not been very diligent. So new things in my life. I went to mount Rushmore! That was a blast! And it was so beautiful there!! I've been working a ton! Oh and lake Powell! I love lakes Powell with all of my heart! It's the best!
Besides trips, I've been chilling at home, working days, friends at night, Morgan on weekends! And college classes as well! That's me! I'm crazy busy! But it's fun! I just back from girls camp! And it was a blast! It was so fun!!

Also about a week ago, my best friend Tiffany turned 18! So exciting! I love her so much!

fun at draper park

just 3 friends... hangin loose

artsy? HAH! took me 20 minutes :)

martins cove! way cool!

this was at mount Rushmore, and i couldn't resist the perfect picture it presented. It reminded me that sometimes in order to get a perspective on something you have to change how you look at it, but "turning"

while we were hiking. there was a wedding! so i took a picture! and i cried.

this is my favorite show. BIG BANG THEORY. bahahahaha

chalk is so fun! 

i hiked a large mountain, just for service at girls camp. yes. i was desperate.

Prairie diamond from martins cove

Mount Rushmore

Rainbow bridge at Lake Powell

"Baylie! hold still..... I see a moment" - Caitlin Howell

Morgan and me :)

Panning for Gold in South Dakota

Daybreak lake! :)

Restaurant humor

Swag, Swag, Swag

these are my best friends!

hail froze over. (this is when i was in South Dakota)

I got to meet Sister Dalton!!!! :) best Fireside ever!

beautiful views in the Black Hills

golfing with Morgan and Anne!

trying to get service behind a hay bale at girls camp!

My home away from home! Lake Powell

Jordan L!

My beautiful friend Tiffany! Happy Birthday!

Martins Cove!

more hail...

You Scared, You scared!

the boys come to us.

Quinn and Quin! cutest couple ever!