At this moment in time i am writing my short story for english. I dont know what its called yet but its gonna be good i can feel it :) anyway on my book Blog i am going to be posting a chapter a week. Only a chapter cuz i cant fit the whole thing on there. Mind you this is only a short story so i didnt go into a lot of detail and its not the best writing cuz im not an author yet :) another thing... If you guys have a twitter you can follow me. Im Bayliebenson :) Haha so anyway i call it my little bursts of happiness :D Haha well thats pretty much everything. Love you!!! Thanks for reading!!!
so I've been pretty busy. like REALLY busy. Tonight i got inducted into the Summit chapter of the National Junior Honors Society. way fun. uh huh. anyway so my friends were there and it was cool :) heres a picture.
Fablehaven 5 is a fantastic book it was great!!! Really the whole series is fantastic!!! I wont spoil it for anyone but you guys just have to read it i mean really truly its amazing:)
fowolling the example of my fellow bloggers.... lol ok so i don't know if you guys knew this but i have a book blog. its called the cozy corner of books with jazz :) orsomething like that. if you go to my favorite blogs on the right side youll see the link :) books i espcially enjoyed are there... i am trying to post more so :) 
okwell thats asmuch as i have patience for at the moment so goodbye. check out my blogWE ARE THE CHAMPIoNS!!!! and i played a litte bit and i made a steal pictures coming soon :D:D :D <# ya! though still mad at coach a bit
a couple things.
1. I HATE being a bench warmer and then being wrongly accused of being not there wow really?
2. i am just sweating through my eyes. NOT crying
3. anyone else kindof afraid of the foreign exchange students?! i am :)
let me explain the whole bench warmer thing. so I had a game today and i was soooo pumped! i was making shots before it started and i was getting excited, and then coach told me at halftime he probablywouldn't put me in. and he didn't. you wanna know why? cuz he said i missed 2 weeks of practice. I missed 1 and it was because i was sick and my mom wrote the coach a note saying that i couldn't go. the note never got deliverd apparently. But thats not the only problem. this is not the first time i have been left out of a game. and guess what there are 2 other people who have been gone for a week or more and he NEVER made them miss a game. THis is the only season where i have actually considered quitting basketball. seriously considered it. but i decided that i wasn't a quiter. oh and my mom decided that its her problem but its not but whatever. my team stood up for me today :) well at least myfriends on the team :) anyway so tell me do you think its fair that i got benched? i think its kinda hypocritical. wow anyway thats my story. oh wait the whole sweating throughmy eyes thing. well i admit i cried after thegame today. even though we won.
buscket list: or things i have never done that i need to do....
1. i have never been to Jamba juice
2. I have never been paintballing
3. I have never shot nor even held an airsoft gun
4. I have only been in the mall hphoto booth things with the filmstrip that come out....once
5 i have never been on a date (butthat wont happen for another 6 months.. :))
thats all i can think of at the moment :)D :)D
good news: I won a environmental award, from the Jane Goodall Institute. its an Environmental Recognition Award, for Exellence in Environmental Research. Pretty darn Snazzy :) out of all of them i alone got this award :) please please i know you're silently applauding but here comes the bad news
Bad news: i didn't make state
which you know i think is kindof bogus but whatever cuz I got a certificate, participation ribbon, a statue trophy of some sort, and pens. not just any pens RECYCABLE pens :) good ball point pens that WORK! and the people who went on to state got a medal, a participation ribbon, and a paper. no pens for them. therefore i am snazzy and they are just smart. hahahah but im snazzy and smart :D:D:D so pictures of my display coming soon. i haven't gotten around to taking pictures except for on my dads phone, so ya :)
Right now im on my way to the doctors office cuz my mom thinks i have Strep. With good cause i suppose. Yesterday i felt like all the battles of the civil war were going on inside my body. It literally hurt to move. Literally. I thought it would go away, so i went to school, ya and it got worse. I didnt want to go home cuz it is school and i had to talk to my science teacher about science fair. So i went home after that and i had a good cry and then found out i had a fever. So now my mother is convinced that i have Strep. This is why im not at school :)
ok BEST movie ever!!! its much better than the name suggests!! especially if you like to laugh, and thank your stars that your not that dramatic :) lol so ya. They ALL speak with BRITISH accents!! even the boys *sigh* wow i love boys who speak in accents :) so anyway like the best movie ever!!! lol so so so so so funny! great CHICK flick, and its a little more mature so don't bring people who wont understnad. its not mature in a bad way, but you gotta know what their talking about for it to be funny. <3 ya!!!
k so my mom brought some stuff up from a box she brought up from downstairs. among this was a notebook with about 10 pages of quotes. and some of them were by her. so therefor i am posting them :) love ya mom!(ps dont kill me :))
"depression slowly settles in
like a cold white snowfall
layer upon layer until the
once warm heart is hidden
in the icy flakes.
Suddenly without warnig a ray of sunshine manages to
penetrate; but the frozen
heart, temporarily thawed,
bleeds drops of sorrow
and longs to be blanketed by
the cold once again"
Nikkie (october 1989)
perfection
the ultimate goal;
reaching, stretching,
but always falling short.
nikkie
(ok this next one is by her best friend karen but I loved it therefore i am posting it)
Occasionally, we all wilt, sag and dry-
and in the end we all must die.
Death is inveitable, life is uncertain.
Laugh and cry and live and die.
Sorrow must end just as happiness
must end.
Karen (july 1989)
the call
exitement, expectation
frustration
why me?
Curiosity, confusion,
conflict
Goodbye!
anger, hope, laughter
Lingering on...
Nikkie
Him
that captivating smile
the tender look
yes or no
do what is right
temptaion, novelty, adventure
excitement
what does it all mean?
emotional seesaw
up and down
Is he worth it?
Nikkie
The ring of a phone
Is it him?
Why doesn’t he call?
Is he trying to avoid me?
Is there someone else?
the ring of a phone
Its him, he’s been out,
he misses me and
wants to see me.
he loves me, he loves me not,
a continuous circle of doubt
Nikkie
I walk alone among the crowds with
the sea of unfamiliar faces flowing past me.
I watch a seagull soar over the ocean and
with it goes my petty discontentment’s.
I look into the faces of strangers and feel
exhilarated by the realization that through them I
have finally found freedom.
Nikkie
the tender look
yes or no
do what is right
temptaion, novely, adventure
exitement
what does it all mean?
emotional seesaw
up and down
Is he worth it?
Nikkie
I MADE DISTRICT FOR THE SCIENCE FAIR!!!!!! WOOT WOOT!!!! so now I get to go on :) yay
Have you ever felt completly devoid of emotion? Or past feeling? Thats how i feel now. Whenever this happens its usually because of 2 things 1. Tiredness and 2. Arguments sometimes (which means alot) this happens
